The rain outside is peaceful. In Georgia, there has been a severe shortage of rain in the past few months. In myself, there has been a severe shortage of several things. Happiness, laughter, sleep, comfort, safety, calmness, inspiration, concentration. There is a greater need for all of these things. Christmas lights glisten against the concrete. They are welcoming, and they are attractive. They portray a false sense of optimism, joy, and cheer. There is a sickness inside of me that is preventing me from experiencing any of this.
People look at the lights and they have no thought whatsoever of the people who have placed them there. There are people behind those lights. There are souls, there are emotions, there are interactions, and there are feelings. read more] |
Beautiful. The mere fact that you can see this and embrace it gives so much hope for us all as human beings. The light is there, you just have to do whatever it is you are willing to do to reach it. Just know that you are far from alone.
Don't let the lack of "life" (for a lack of a better word) hold you back from living.
After reading a few of your entries it is beyond clear to me that you are going through something more difficult then even my darkest days have seen. Despite these difficult times, I can see, just in the way that you express yourself, that you are going to get through it all and be ok.
I wish you the best and hope that you have a safe and happy holiday season.
The New Year is almost here, and I'm excited. I'm gonna live.