I have to say it now or the fear inside me will truly manifest itself into something dangerous.
I am truly afraid to let my guard down.
I don't quite know why it's come to this, but it exists. I'm scared for myself. I'm scared to open to break down the walls, To invite someone in. Yet, I sit on the other side feeling afraid, lonely, and resentful.
I want people to come in, but I can't seem to open the door. Instead, I pace and worry and overthink it all. [read more]