I am really doing nothing right now. That feels good in a way. It hasn't been the easiest few weeks. I've had a ton of stuff to take care of and though there is still a lot ahead. The applications are all done and my failed attempt to post my personal statement caused some family drama. Despite that, it feels good to be done with all that. Now I have the unfortunate task of waiting for decisions. I won't know when I'm going until June and the financial stuff won't be figured out until August probably. For now I'm shifting my focus to putting together Razia's Shadow. The semester will be over by the end of May. I'll probably take a week to enjoy my 21st birthday in about a month. I move into my friend's house in about 3 weeks. So yes, big events but more spaced out and not as crazy as the last month has been.
I haven't been getting along well with my parents lately. I'd write more about it but it seems that they read this blog. My personal statement garnered some angry response. Whatever. My dad is ignoring me because he owes me money and my mom and step-dad are just mad at me. I think it's best if we keep distance right now.
I miss my friends. Haven't talked to Eric much since he's been in Paris. Kyle works weekends and I work during the week. Jason is still at UCLA being awesome. The guys I'm moving in with are all up to their own things and I'll be spending enough time with them in the coming months. It was nice to see a movie with Kyle and Lauren and Shelby even though it was Knowing, which was the worst movie I've seen in a while. I also had fun working the Pancake breakfast with Shelby. It felt good to do some manual work for some reason. I hope to work out more this summer.
I'm burnt out on this semester. I'm ready for summer. I'm in a productive, but content state of mind right now. I'm planning and securing for the future, but relaxing a bit for once. We'll see what the future holds, but this calm won't last for long... that's for sure.