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There is No Safe Investment; To Love at All is to Be Vulnerable
|There is No Safe Investment; To Love at All is to Be Vulnerable|
03/08/11 at 04:40 PM by inthemidst
|Trust always seems to be a pressing issue; I just never thought it would be the lack of trust in myself that would be the root cause of my fears and insecurities with both personal and spiritual issues revolving around myself. It seems that everything in my life I'm stuck in a one foot in and one foot out scenario. With God, my romantic and platonic relationships as well, it's as if I can't give my whole self in anything. The odd thing is that my brain tells me what is right; thus I have assurance logically in these areas. However, my heart is struggling to focus on the most important things in my life. It's quite the paradox.|
These conflicts are surfacing, and once actually confronted to make a move, I run away. Some form of change is necessary, and I feel that the people in my life don't seem to understand what I'm going through. One thing is sure, I can't go on lacking trust. Without trust, I will not have success, and maybe even more importantly, I won't experience growth. How can one move out of the quicksand when his knees are buried deep in confusion and apathy?
This is a season of questioning for me. Questioning all areas of life that I invest my time in, and it's about time that I start to unfold the answers that await for me. In due time.