I want new friends -- I want to be alone
I want to lose weight -- I don't give a shit if I lose a pound
I'm straight edge -- I need a drink!
It's all so repetitive, useless, and time consuming. I can't stick to anything.
I just noticed new strecth marks on my body though, so I really need to calm down with what I'm eating. I should have known better. I've been really uncomfortable all day. MY feet hurt from walking in flats so much yesterday, and the pants that I was wearing didn't comply with my thunder thighs, so I chaffed pretty badly. I hope you're laughing, because I'm not.
I went on a date last night with Sam. It was nice, but ...all he wanted to talk about was "if we were dating...". I don't do good with hypotheticals, when I assume, I'm usually wrong so I try not to. I don't think he liked most of my answers to his questions, but hey, at least he got answers.
I went to the anarchist bookfair, second year in a row, still went alone. I'm getting tired of being alone.
John is Joan's new best friends/hook up buddy so I'm even more alone than before. It happens.
I don't really want to hook up with Sam, I might as well though.
I should've stopped to learn Chess today, but I was in a rush to go to the bookfair and be alone and wandering. I thought about going to the afterparty but ...again, being alone sucks. No one would have paid attention to me anyway, I wasn't punk enough compared to everyone else that was there. I'll never be a part of that scene, I would like to just for the sake of being able to make new friends but I don't like hardcore music very much so we wouldn't have a solid basis for our friendship.
I saw Eric, this guy I met at a party about a month ago. I invited him to my FNB benefit show, of course he didn't show up and he didn't recognize me today :[ no surprise there, either.
I need to work out and get laid or just find someone that's willing to waste time with me. I'll take anything at this point.