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04/25/12 at 11:20 PM by fallen glory
|I am a guy of muscle and bone,want and needs,ambitions and plans,hopes and sometimes dreams.|
I get alot of strange looks and more often than not people choose to ignore me.Days go by where you are the only one who shows me any affection...but i'm so stressed all the time,i just need something to make problems disappear.I never meant to be so cold,i want to say sorry,i want to beg you to believe in me,i want my promises to mean something,i want my words to be true....alas...this is not the case.
You are willing to believe whatever your mind cooks up about me....when really none of it's true...so sometime i feel like i'm nothing more but dust beneathe you..i feel though that if you could just know me for who i really am and could see the world i do sometimes...maybe you could understand :/....sometimes i try hard to express my feelings to you but i don't know how without being so angry,i wish you could understand...i wish i could help...i want to feel like i have something to offer...without feeling like every other guy is just so much better...but it's hard when you're feeling scarred...it's hard when you feel like you have no hope,it's hard when i just can't see me being all that great,i guess if i could stop living with me i would....because i don't like me either..