|'s Blog|| | |
08/26/12 at 11:19 PM by billyboatkid
|Even after destroying me you still couldn't tell me you didn't love me anymore..|
It makes me laugh and smile. When you do those things that prove to me what I've known all along. Prove you still think about me, us. I mean I'm okay now. I won't say it didn't hurt, that it doesn't sting sometimes. Yet, something that big that changes you wholey to the core you treat as if it was nothing, but you still talk about it.. You're not fooling anyone. You wonder why people don't believe you. But we both know the truth. We both know how it ended and how you were always good at forcing yourself. 2 years wasn't nothing. It got you to where you are now. Whether that be the wrong place or right only time will tell. Do us both a favor and stop acting like it was nothing because you're making it obvious it was much more then that. You shouldn't be thinking about the past when you have so much "future" going on. This wasn't my choice and I fought with everything I had. Literally. I had my regrets which are now just dying stars but yours only seem to be getting brighter. You can't say something when you don't believe it with all your heart.
I haven't written in a long time. No need. Worked on myself. Been becoming a better me like I needed and should have been for you. True love never dies just gets replaced with look alikes. You left me with only one option so I took it and have only looked back as much as my heart allowed. You're still there lost in the folds, happy thoughts I can't quite hold. Tucked away with everything I can. Like a coal smoldering in the back of your mind. Give it any oxygen and it'll flare up that fire you've tried so hard to put out. Replace.
"I'll be seeing you"
I know you avoid seeing me just as much as I with you. Because like everything else we both know (we knew each other too well) when that day comes I'm sure your heart will finally tell your head what a mistake you've made.
Mine already did. You just always held out the longest..