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06/30/08 at 08:38 PM by rollerman4221
|I've spent 3 years building of my tollerance from you, to keep you close enough to love you but not close enough to fall in love. You fucked me over, ruined my emotions, and I had to put myself together, and I did.|
I became someone new, a asshole to everyone but at the same time showing compassion at all times. I grew to love my friends, but you stayed there.
I worked for 3 years to keep you away from tearing apart my heart, you broke the wall tonight.
One night, I felt this comming for a few weeks now, but we were fine 4 days ago.
I finally told you the words you wanted to hear, that I wanted you, to love you, do be in a relationship again. You did not even have a reply.
There were two ways I delt with you tearing out my heat last time, I refuse to do the first way ever again as i vowed no girl was worth my blood.
I am stuck between two things that piss me off, annoy me, break me, make me feel like shit.
One of them holds my monitary income, so therefore my life.
The other holds my heart.
Both are shitting on me right now.
What can I do?
I refuse to fall asleep in tears over you again
Looks like I have many more late night runs to look forward to.