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10/07/08 at 11:05 PM by cassusriff
|I've been searching for something real and tangible. Something strong and everlasting. Something that bends but never breaks. Something that folds but never tears. |
I've sought this out in material and friends and experiences and family and false hope and fake love.
I've believed and believed even when I don't believe. I've seen what has been invisible to me. I've touched what isn't even there. I've done this, knowing... but really, hoping, that it would appear one day. That my blind faith would reward me and I could finally ride on cloud 9 with karma by my side.
What I've discovered is that it does exist, but it doesn't mean that life unfolds so easily after you find it. I've discovered that though you can have one very bright light guide you through a cave, you will still find darkness in some areas.
I've discovered that happiness comes with sacrifice, dedication, strength.
But you know what I also have discovered?
Purity. Clarity. Trust. Compassion. Love. Strength. Commitment. Peace. Euphoria.
I've seen it all in her eyes.
So the fight is worth it. No one will understand the battle. No one will understand the pain and the struggle. No one will understand why it's all worth it.
But the best part?
No one else will get to feel the reward. No one else will know how much it really is worth it. No one will know how great it feels to have what you fight so hard for.
And when that time comes for me, I will never regret a single bad moment I had to experience to get there.
Because it really is worth it.