Everytime you say those things my opinion of you goes down by notches, its about to hit the fucking ground. What if I told her all the things you said, I actually feel bad, like I've been made part of this vicious cycle, vicitimizing someone I have no bad intentions towards. Guilt and regret are trailing me, marking and bruising the type of person I've been trying to be recently. Welcome to decite my friend, you've just given it a new definition.
I care, part of me always has I never could admit it, pride I guess, stupid reasons that mean even less now that I look back at them. Now it's to late. Sometimes we can't rewrite history, we just have to live through it.
It's monday, I have class tomorrow which in the world of a lit major (or maybe just this one) means massive amounts of reading that we've put off all week in favor of long nights out with our best friends cheap beer and liquor. So, I'm procrastinating at my parents house while waiting for my wash to dry..basically I'm just fucking around online.
I found these;
regarding the jonas brothers
I wonít belabor the point, but the Jonas Brothers are evil. They are a virus that perpetually feeds on the hearts and minds of children everywhere, convincing them that the purpose of pop music is nothing more than to bring smiles to faces, flutters to hearts, and joyful tears to eyes. Their rebellion is false and their virtue a mere corporately sponsored caricature of banality. I fear for the future of our youth because of their ubiquity.
Look, I know you probably think I sound a little harsh here, but Iím actually being kinder than I would prefer, for the Jonas Brothers are the worst kind of assault against the sensibilities of young listeners, and a disastrous byproduct of the mass-media age in which we live. the Jonas Brothers are pre-packaged, government sponsored rock, devoid of soul and meaning, designed to do nothing more than sell merchandise and push the bland indoctrinations of conformity masked as defiance. Our teenagers deserve better than this. They deserve rock music that begs them to question the assumptions of society and the platitudes of the authority around them. They deserve music that offends and upsets the order of things and causes parents to worry, if only just a little. They deserve rock that makes them feel genuinely alive, not heavily manicured pop garbage that fastens them permanently to a sinking ship of dutiful compliance.
it's so fucking true that its not even funny, and I cant help but agree 100%, that being said I'm pretty sure it fits well into our genre of music. I'm not going to get into the whole thing again, its been said enough times and in enough ways that there is no need to rehash old details.
other then that, I've been on a slight weezer kick since I saw them live, what can I say, they impressed me...and while fucking around found this quote by Rivers about he creates music;
because I'm so terrible at expressing my feelings directly, and because no one really cares, and because anything real is impossible to talk about, i've come to rely on music more and more to express myself.
Well I wish that I was as good as you at caring and trusting
And I wish that my condition was new but I'm old and rusted
So we just hurry up only to wait
And add to the list of all the places we hate And I'll pretend like I've got something to say but I've got nothing
And now I know what you stole
Yeah you stole
From the cradles they were rocked in
You took the first words that they spoke
Yeah you stole
Yeah you stole
So if I'm a liar then you're a thief At least we both know where the other one sleeps and lets end this tonight.
The past two days have been work work work, pack pack pack, to the sound track of valencia and new found glory. It's official, moving day is here. I'm out of time and am probably going to have to resort to the throw everything in a bag, hope you dont forget anything and sort when you get there....and people say I'm disorganized pshhh
the end, where they're all hugging, christ...wish I could have been there. Thanks for whoever took those videos, it was really great to be able to see. The matches really are some of the nicest guys, I wish them the best of luck with everything.
on a happier note, blink-18motherfucking2 tomorrow.
I have this theory about making decisions, maybe it just applies to me, I really donít know. Iíve always sort of believed that when you are unsure about something you have already made a decision, you just donít really like your choice. Youíre trying to figure out what to do, and most of the time, you already know what youíre answer is supposed to be. Sometimes coming to grips with that is the most difficult part. I understand whatís expected of me, but getting thereÖ.well that in and of itself remains to be seen. The more important issue is am I still even trying to get to the same place? At this point, could I even change courses if I wasnít?
Itís been a while since Iíve felt that I have had anything worth saying, things have been chaotic and ive sort of filed things away for later, living in the present and just ignoring things. Not always, the best way to live and now it is time to stop running around and deal with a few things. Specifically one minor detail that changed just about everything, without really changing anything at all. Itís vague and Iím sorry, but thatís the way I have to play it, at least for right now. Nobody even knows except for that person and me. I havenít said anything because, well I really donít want to have to deal with the fall out that might accompany it, the fact that the other person didnít say anythingÖthatís fucking shocking. Iím not exactly sure what it means, but the bottom line comes down to this; I just canít reconcile who you were with who youíve become, that you were with her, and had different intentions the entire time. What kind of person does that make you? What kind of person does that make me for not seeing it? I never thought it could possibly be true, and you had to go and say all those things, without even the courage to do it sober. You just left, and Iím not exactly sure what any of it means.
gosh, great. There is one that is much closer but this offered better sound quality, that seems to be the important part, to me at least haha. He also played a cover of lua by bright eyes that was phenomenal. I waited so long to see him, years in fact because I was also busy when he came around. He definitely didn't disappoint, just him and a guitar on a folding chair for over an hour. Fucking awesome.
I also really loved this video, but its from spin so I'll just have to include a link...sigh
Kevin Devine covers the Smiths- There is a light that never goes out
It's been a while, due to my gay work schedual and friend leaving (which I will get into later) I've had practically no time on my hands. But I FINALLY saw kevin devine last night! It was amazing, everything I could have hoped for, he has so much sincerity on stage. You tell that he still feels the truth in the words he sings. I was also lucky enough to bump into him (literally) on the way out because the venue was so small. He was just very genuine in thanking my friends and I for coming to the show. All in all best Tuesday I've had in a while, especially since it didn't involve work. Must be off now another work days calls = (