"Have you ever wondered if that feeling would come back?"
Of course I have. I miss that feeling, and I miss her. I haven't been able to figure out an answer to it all, though. It either happens, or it doesn't. You don't choose these things. They choose you. You can try your hardest for something, you can practically kill yourself trying to make it work. Sometimes the pieces don't fall into place. Sometimes you can't even find all the pieces.
"I don't know, you were really special to me then, and I remember how great you made me feel. So, no matter what, at least we have that."
"Funny how those memories stay with you, even if they didn't seem like anything special at the time. They do now."
I wrote this as part of a guest blog appearance for another user's blog, and figured I would post it here as well. Five albums that weren't received all too well upon their release, but later down the line, at least for me, they prove themselves worthy.
The Academy Is - Fast Times At Barrington High - This album was quickly written off when it first came out. It just wasn't what I wanted at the time. Eventually though, I fell in love. A concept album about high school turned a lot of people off, but the nostalgia and memories this album triggers is almost overwhelming. I hated high school, but this album brings back the little moments that are tucked away in my brain that I do sometimes miss. It could be anyone's soundtrack.
Hidden In Plain View - Resolution - Forget that Joe doesn't sing as much as he should have. Forget that the songs are more melodic than they are intense. Some bands record an album, and then break up. Hidden In Plain View recorded an album while they were breaking up. A very narrative, personal, and emotional record, that makes you wonder if this band was taken away before they truly reached their peak. An album of goodbyes, I like to think.
Dashboard Confessional - Dusk and Summer - There's a lot of criticism towards this album. Maybe it's because it was Dashboard's big break, ala` Spiderman style, or maybe it's because it was just too hard to compare to the earlier material. Some people will always prefer Chris alone with a guitar to the full band. Don't let the title fool you, this album is good for any season. Even better, check out the deluxe edition with the live version of "The Best Deceptions." Absolutely haunting.
Our Lady Peace - Gravity - While a departure from the more experimental sound they had played with on the previous album Spiritual Machines, Gravity is one hell of a rock album. Die hard fans were turned off by its mainstream accessability, but this doesn't mean the album is a throwaway. Raine and crew prove they can write an album with energy and emotion, without falling into the radio-rock trap 99% of other arists stumble into. Melodic and dark, this album has it all.
Marvelous 3 - ReadySexGo - How do you follow up one of the biggest hit singles and albums of the 90s? Even moreso, how do you follow that up when your label has told you to go to hell? The answer? You tell everyone to go to hell, and then you write a killer, tongue in cheek, balls to the wall, booming rock anthem album that feels like it was crafted for arenas across the world. That's not how things went for the Marvelous 3, but this album is pop-cock-arena-whatever-rock at its absolute pinnacle. "Cigarette Lighter Love Song" is arguably the greatest album closer of the decade. Butch Walker presents of a showcase of his rock genius.
"You have to give the songs some time to get a feel. We have a song on the record called 'The Scene Is Dead Now.' It was called 'Bright Lights' when we were writing it. We did it on the road, and it was one of our favorites, but we only had, like, a verse and a chorus — just the parts," Saporta said. "But when we put it together in September, I hated it. It made me cringe. And we were like, 'What the f--- is wrong with this song?!' So we had to go to the mountains, sit down and methodically break it down, analyze it. Like, 'OK, why isn't this working? What are we going to do?' We completely rearranged it, and now it flows awesome, and it's my favorite song on the record."
The place where I started my writing/blogging endeavor, for better or for worse.
Thanks to everyone who read there over the years, commented, and even joined AP as a result of doing so. AP takes care of my blogging needs for now, so I simply didn't need to maintain that site any longer.
I just wanted to give a huge, huge thank you to everyone who helped make today so much fun. I thought the video I made would get a few laughs, but I wasn't expecting it to blow up like it did. I was actually worried people would think it was lame. I'm really glad I could help bring some laughs.
Sure, it's nice to get the attention and have people say the usual "good job," "you're funny," rinse and repeat sort of stuff, but that's not the only reason why I do what I do here. Things like this really do bring everyone together and show how great of a community we are. Half of these jokes wouldn't have even existed if the site wasn't as interesting as it is. You had users from every corner of the site interacting with each other today. You had people who were having shitty days, and they said this cheered them up.
It's awesome when there's something going on where everyone can just forget about their bullshit and their drama, and just have a good time on here. That's why I started posting, and that's why I continue posting.
So thank you guys, it was definitely a memorable day.
And I'm wondering what you would like to see me review. It could be an album that just came out, or an album from a year or two, or more ago. I've been meaning to get back to writing reviews and thought it might be fun to get some public opinion involved. The only one I'm sure that I will be writing is Lydia's Illuminate. I don't know why I haven't already written one for that album, it definitely deserves the treatment.
One night, she poured it all out. And I listened. And I told her everything I thought and everything I felt, good and bad for better or for worse. I gave the greatest psychoanalysis of my brief career up to that point.
"Why do you always have to be so right about everything with me?" she said. She sounded like she was crying. Maybe she was.
And it was true. Regardless of how awful the situation was that I had just described to her. Or how hopeless, and pointless, and just how fucking sad it all was. How we talked for hours wondering why we made the decisions we did to get here.
It was true. I was right. I had always been right, she had just never listened.
But nothing ever changed.
People rarely know how much they truly care about somebody until they are inches away from losing that person for forever. Most of them choose to let go anyways.
What a surprising thing to wake up to. This is even more random than the time Max Bemis mentioned my avatar. It's pretty cool that something I said ended up causing enough of a stir to get noticed by somebody as popular as Gabe Saporta, let alone to be used as the title for a song on his new album. I am flattered, and even if the song is about how I am a negative, elitist douchebag, I will still think it is awesome. It's truly surreal that something I constructed in my fucked up head and put to words ended up being used as a song title for a pretty successful band.
It also occurred to me that weeks ago when I had to opportunity to talk to Gabe himself in regards to the Millionaires controversy and a few other things, I was so caught up in the moment and the drama that I forgot to take a moment and just speak for myself as a fan. I indirectly mentioned how the music he made in Midtown was very meaningful and important to me, but as far as I can remember, I didn't take the time to thank him directly and tell him one to one how much that music meant to me. I might have, as that interview is such a blur, but that's why I had been so bothered in the first place about everything that had been going on. When something means so much to you, and then either changes dramatically or disappears completely, it's bound to leave you with a bad taste in your mouth, and a lot of questions unanswered.
Hopefully that interview surfaces soon. Maybe it will have some of the answers people are looking for, or maybe I will be reminded of something Gabe said and not feel as bummed as I still do.
But hey, it is what it is. At least I get a song.
Cobra Starship - "The Scene Is Dead - Long Live The Scene"
Perhaps things will never reach that level again. It is hard for me to imagine anything as groundbreaking occurring anytime soon. I am disappointed at the direction the scene has gone over the years, but I am thrilled I was there to see it at its finest. Those are the days I will never, ever forget.
If you don't know Lakes, it is the project Seth from Watashi Wa is currently working on. The songs he's released so far have all been really, really good, so I'm excited to see what he has in store. Check them out, vastly underrated. Very melodic stuff.
I've heard some rumblings lately. There's no need for a thread like Danny's "Biggest Cock Tease Band Reuniting," but I have to throw some words out there, regardless of how vague or useless or nondescript they may be.
I don't know when it's coming exactly, it might not even be until 2010. Keep in mind we are more than halfway through 2009.
It was like Christmas hearing that something was in the works. It was better than Christmas, because instead of unwrapping some present I didn't give a fuck about, I know what I'm getting with this. If things work out, which they may or may not, this will be incredible. People loved this band. They still do. I still do. Life is fickle, so things change and there are no guarantees, but to hear that these people still have their hearts in music, and want to do what they did before, just made me so fucking happy. So surprised, and so so happy.
I don't know who will read this or who will even care, but there will be at least one more band getting back together in the near future, and I think people are going to be thrilled. Sorry to be such a tease, and I promise I will tell you more as soon as I hear something concrete and am allowed to say so. Right now all I know is things are in discussion, but you have to start somewhere. Sometimes all you need is a spark.
This will be something to look forward to, even though you don't know exactly what or who it is.
Edit: Given all the recent events, I'll go ahead and promise you I am not talking about Midtown. Once you read the interview you'll believe that 100%.