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| | Worst fucking luck |
| My car is dead. I fucking hate tractor trailers and I hate that now even though I'm broke, I have to get a new car. fuck fuck fuck. and my insurance is going to go up bc i'm going to get a newer car. AHHHH. this is the price i pay for going out to dinner with my mom | | Tags: car, dead, luck, |
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| | | armor for sleep, j.e.w./futures, and friendship |
this will probably be the most unorganized blog in the history of AP
Sleeping With Giants Tour
So I am a huge dork for Armor for Sleep, really it's kinda a problem. So my friend casey and i went to charlotte and saw the tour. Quality road trip from the random guys from KY who were sad we weren't going to the SF show, to the really awesome girl we sat next to on the sidewalk for 2 hours, charlotte was a fun time. The show itself was really a blast and AFS was amazing. First time I've been fortunate enough to see them and i was floored by their drummer. Really recordings don't do him justice. I was pleasantly surprised by all the other bands, especially The Rocket Summer, because i was expecting to not really be that into it. If you want a real review go here, Casey wrote an amazing one as usual. For those you who don't have the good luck of knowing her, read her stuff. Really adrian once said she's "one of the best" in reference to her reviews and that in my biased opinion is an understatement.
The pitfalls of driving
so when i drive long distances at night, i have an inevitable tradition of putting on Futures and thinking about life. I realize that Futures isn't exactly everyone's top J.E.W. album, but for some odd reason I find that no matter at what point I am in life, there's always something about it that makes it a good soundtrack for reflection.
Everyone believes that there is something that makes them special, they have a unique quality that makes them different from the millions of people in this world. I have mixed feelings on if/what actually makes me stand out. I'm cynical and honest enough to say really nothing, with the exception of maybe politics and definitely my friends.
I know most people say they love their friends and they'd die for their friends and I am certainly no exception. As I've gotten older, I realize I have a handful of people who have stuck by me through events that no person ever should and I have people who are someone to text when you are bored and waiting for your coffee. The latter take up too much space in my life and i'm finally at the point where I'm comfortable (maybe too much so) in being alone that I don't need fluff. To my true friends, I think i'd take the 'typical' statement a bit further. Without these people i know for a fact I wouldn't be around. Their fierce loyalty is astounding to me and gives me faith in humanity in general. if the few people i have can stand by someone so undeserving then we all really can't be that bad off.
i'm sure most of you don't care and didn't even read this far, but really take a minute to think about those people who will love you no matter what even if your only goal in life is to become a crazy cat lady.
other bullshit
quick random thoughts:
1. make sure you change your oil - i almost killed my car because i'm an idiot and went 6K over my last oil change.
2. really do we still need threads about how tate is unfair yadda yadda. it's been up there for like 4 hours! accept that its his site he can do what ever the fuck he wants and get your panties out of a knot.
3. construction on sunday morning at 7 am should be outlawed.
4. anton's blog about spiders may have been the funniest thing that i have ever read in my entire life. its the second time this weekend i've laughed so hard i've cried.
5. i will never again date/like/talk to boys in shitty bands. i may not have a single creative bone in my body but i know shit when i hear it... | | Tags: friendship, personal, |
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| | quarterlife crisis |
i had a revelation today. i am going to be stuck in this area [dc] basically my entire life. that scares the fucking hell out of me. i want to travel and live in different places. i want to at some point live so close to the pacific i can hear it out of my window, even for just a month. i want to be in a place where the scene is about the music not about dressing to impress, if such a place exists.
im pretty much in a holding pattern of inertia. | | Tags: life, travel, dc |
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| | dreamy senators, veto, and poor kids |
So I'm at work today and we know today is the day that the president is going to veto SCHIP. SCHIP is health insurance for the working poor's kids and the program has been tremendously successful. Currently there are still 9 million uninsured kids in the US. this means they can't go to the drs when they're sick, they don't have access to preventative meds, etc and over 70% of these children's parents have at least one job. We're not talking 'welfare,' but a program that actually aids the people who bring you your food, clean up your office, etc each and every day. Sure why would we as americans want to help poor kids. they're not important. let's spend 12 billion dollars A MONTH in the war in iraq, essentially kililng people. That's a logical way to spend money. UGH.
Anyways so that long winded rant is an entry into some very dorky but fun news for me. I went to a meeting on schip/approps today and senator harkin was trying to enter the room and in the process touched my shoulder. swoon.  haha i love that man and I think he is a great and rational leader who really wants to put the american people's best interest first. i realize that this makes me sound like a total loser, but seriously highlight of my week.
Off to go help con republicans into thinking healthy kids are good.  | | Tags: politics, bush, senate, love |
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| | bullshit |
I forget how much I love Deja. Fucking incredible how every song is better than the last and always fits.
"Die Young and Save Yourself" - truly brilliant line. seems so fitting given everything.
what a fucking night. it always amazes me how cruel people can be without ever caring. its amazing how much you can miss someone after so long. | |
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| | happiness |
its amazing how the simplest things with the best people make all the bullshit disappear and life worthwhile.
my friends are my everything | | Tags: friendship |
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| | writer's block & thanks |
I'm at work and I've decided that today I'm going to finish our damn newsletter. I have been writing variations on "Maine legislators have" for the past 20 minutes and am currently staring at my cursor blinking against a blank page.
I need inspiration. I need the fire, eloquence, grace, and most importantly patience to write this. I am so frusterated because all of our 'news' could change in an instant because of our government's inability to DO anything remotely unrelated to iraq at this moment.
AHHH. writing on 4 hours of sleep is never fun.
on a separate note, thank you to everyone yesterday who cheered me up out of my cranky mood. It never fails to amaze me the way in which a perfect stranger can make you laugh like you've been old friends for years or find a song that emulates your mood to the T.
back to trying to write about maine's legislative debacle. | | Tags: work, writing, thank you, personal |
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| | cockiness and pick up lines |
let me preface this with it has been one of those god damn days and i am by nature not a tremendous bitch, nor do i mind talking to strangers. but it has been one of those days....
So i'm sitting on the metro squashed in between people and it finally clears out enough to where i can stand without someone's ass in my face and finally i get a seat. Upon sitting quietly for a bit, some random pretentious guy (complete w/pastel shirt and tie and ivy league belt) comes over my way. Insert awkward slightly sexist pickup line here. something along the lines of how come some guy hasn't snatched you up so you don't have to work/have to ride the metro. yes because i want to be barefoot and pregnant in the kitchen cooking your ass dinner. right up my fucking alley.
is it really THAT much to ask to just have for once a random nice guy come up? i swear to god im not picky, all i need is good taste in music, not super conservative, likes animals, and won't chain me to a radiator in a storage unit somewhere on the outskirts of town (serial killer tendencies do nothing for me).
maybe the better question is is it possible to ride metro and just get to sit and keep to yourself? | | Tags: commuting, boys, sketchy, dating |
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| | waiting |
| today is one of those days. i am waiting for the incredible. waiting for the hook that changes my life. waiting my body to erupt in goosebumps with one solid scream. waiting for something anything to make me feel okay again and it's not coming. i don't know what i need but i want something to take my breath away and make me feel like this life is worth all the fucking effort. | |
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| | i can't believe this man is our president |
watching bush speak about iraq is utterly painful. he is so fucking oblivious and smug. i wish we could force him to live like our troops do for a month and then see if we're still 'victorious.'
i have no god damn respect for this man and he is a disgrace to the office.
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| | 'the rock and roll revolution' |
| channel surfing - abc says MCR is the most popular band on the internet and they are going to examine the rock and roll revolution. their words. further proof that mainstream media should stay away from music unless its high school musical 2. | | Tags: MCR, media |
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| | United We Stand? |
This morning as the bus I take to work approached I noticed the scrolling marque which stated the message we've all heard for exactly 6 years today...United We Stand. Maybe it was the way the wind whipped the flags at half mast or the gloomy weather, but I started to think about this phrase which has been uttered at every opportune moment.
Are we really united anymore? We we ever really? As we made our way through DC, our great nation's capital, it made me question what our country stood for and where it stands now. Why am I the fortunate person, who had the priviledge of being born into a household that would do anything and everything to make sure I could secure the life I have? And why do I matter more to our leaders, than the man sitting on the corner under newspaper trying to avoid the rain?
In my mind, united we stand is nothing but a clever marketing ploy to channel the feelings of patriotism to give this administration the right to do whatever they want. To hell with the problems of this country, we need to seek revenge. So children are going hungry in this great nation and the sick can't go to the doctors? They don't make a good catch phrase, so of course they don't matter.
Apparently what does matter is destroying the lives of thousands and continuing to risk more lives every day in the name of patriotism. In the name of 9-11. It is heartwrenching to think of the hundreds of thousands of people affected by this tragedy and how our government won't put a stop to the mindless loss of life.
When I was little my grandmother used to tell me about how great it was coming here from Germany after the war (WWII) and how proud she was to be here. I wonder what happened to all those principals that our country was founded on and if there is any way to recover. Our country is sinking faster than the sand between your toes at the beach and we will fall if we keep going in this direction. Americans need something to be proud of and to believe in. We need to make this nation the great place it once was. We need to remember those lost because of 9-11 and in the name of freedom and ensure we make it stop. Guns and violence won't do this, but great leadership can. We just need to find it.
sorry not sure if that really made much sense. | |
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| | new music |
| i am sick of everything i listen to on a regular basis. if anyone has good recs let me know. | |
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