She is the pieces to this puzzle. Most of my pieces they never fit, but she could always manage it. All my rough edges made perfectly in line with the help of those beautiful eyes. She was the reason I felt whole and could breathe. She was all that I had need.
The way she would look at me. She had a bunch of different looks and smiles. I loved all of them, but my favorite was when she would look at me and her eyes would get really big and light up and then this super big smile would follow. That's when I knew she loved me the most haha. It was the best thing ever. Then she would throw her arms around me and love on me haha. I'm such a sap it's terrible.
Wrote a song lullaby type song last night, pretty sweet. Wish I could show her.
Has to be one of my all time favorite songs.. I love it so much I learned how to play it. The one song that reminds me the most of stuff. I'm a big softy. Even my beard is soft haha. Reminds me gotta get ready for no shave november.
But I guess I really wrote this because I've been listening to Lullaby nonstop. Pretty sure it's my number one played song on iTunes or top 3. Jumped up another 20 plays in the last few days haha. I'm fucking lame.
Hmm well after the horrible weekend I can say I'm looking forward to Batman Arkham City which comes out tomorrow at midnight. Haven't bought a video game in two years since God of War 3 so hopefully that will help stifle my thoughts for a while.
Sucks cause I go to my grandparents and 20 questions turns into 50 questions. All excited to meet her and my parents make me go even when I don't want to. I love them tho. Hmmm what else is new. Sorry to whoever reads this I'm trying to make this as least pathetic as I can.
hmmm can't wait to snowboard.. Can't wait for halloween.. Seems that this stuff always happens around this time so it becomes my shit show. Why stop the trend now haha. I know it'll be nuts for sure. people think I'm so calm and quite, but I'll drink their happy asses under the table. I just hope Ruben isn't there haha. Mother fucker always challenges me. Last year he handed me a glasses and said drink.. ended up being four shots. Bastard.
Absolutely and totally blew my expectations away. I don't understand how some of the staff isn't liking this. Such an evolution and maturity in their sound. Especially Maika's vocals. Oh man he can wail. I could totally see these guys getting huge.
I literally was loving every song on the album first listen. That's pretty rare. So stoked I get to see them at Warped this year.
Can't wait to pick this up tomorrow.
In other news. I'm loving my girlie too much haha. Happy days.
Found out about a secret show that was being done tonight at a place called Amped down by campus. Never heard of it before, but it was supposed to be The Swellers and Bayside. They had a day off from their Take Action Tour which skipped us for the first year ever. Fucking bull shit. But that's another story.
So we go and there are a couple local bands and then Bayside. Alas, Anthony had gotten sick so the lead singer of The Swellers played with the rest of Bayside. A total of four covers which included NOFX and some others. Not bad for my first time hearing them/him aka The Swellers lead singer.
I honestly have heard of them, but never listened. Then they were next and damn did they put on an awesome show. The stage and crowd area were eye level so that was cool and everyone was getting pretty crazy in this small ass room.
I must say I have a new band that I thoroughly enjoy. They played about an hour or maybe a little less. First time hearing them and it was good. They have some pretty catchy stuff. Only the second band ever that I've heard live and come away liking right off the bat. That's a feat in my book. Looks like I'll have to dive into their discography.
Such bull shit. I'm so stressed and hurt by the last few days. Literally have been the shitty days I've had in as long as I can remember. The feeling I have in my stomach and stuff. I'm so glad I only worked a half day today and don't work tomorrow. Idk if I could handle it.
Went to a Blue's and Brews festival today. Was pretty fun with my two best buddies Jacob and Rob, but then they went to another party and I just came home. Felt like shit and literally just wanted to sleep. Wasn't the beer..
Whatever, I'm not gonna talk about it. I'm getting so tired of being an option and not a priority. It sucks. I know how I've made people aka someone feel and I already regretted it and now I feel even worse. I would hate to make them feel like this. Difference is there was no one else.. Fuck.
Oh well, I dld this new app called Soundtracking a while back. Last night I posted an MJ track and haven't stopped getting updates all fucking day. Literally have 44 loves 34 likes and 9 comments. Shit's ridic.
Well I'm off to bed. Gonna sleep for a ridiculous amount of time and hope when I wake up things will be better. I won't hold my breath tho.
Ahhh. Some times it's just nice to sit back and relax. Especially on beautiful Spring nights as such. Loving the breeze blowing in through my window. Just perfect.
Getting back into that work out mode for Spring and the Summer haha. Sounds girlish, but it's true. Gotta loose some of that Winter weight we all seem to accrue. I hate it, but what can you do.'
What else. So much crazy going on in my life at the moment I don't even wanna write it all down. Would take way too long. At times I don't even know what to do with myself. haha
Stoked for all the music that's coming out and albums. Please, please, please ATL don't let me down. This is seriously the last chance. NP had it's moments, but it still was shit compared to the EP and SWIR
I can't even believe you'd shit all over your artistic integrity and release that single. You may think all this hate is unneeded from everyone, but it's just your fans telling you you're fucking up. We loved you for a reason and it's like a slap to the face when we know you're so much better than this.. Oh well that's my rant.
My hair is ridiculously long. It get's curly and wavy which is weird, but I'm too lazy to get haircut haha.
I love writing these blogs. Especially in my undergarments. ;)
Nothings happening, nothings changing. All these empty words and nothing to show.
She tells me she misses me and tells me she loves me, yet can't seem to break away.
Letting go is hard when you are and she keeps coming back. Still just the 2nd string quarter back haha.
Whatever, I've tried as hard as I can. I'm not saying or doing anything anymore. I gain nothing and get nothing in return, but heartache and sad glances. She knows what she did last wednesday... That should be enough for anyone..
Maybe one day she'll figure it out (even tho she has) and hopefully for her I'll still be there.. But I wouldn't put my cards on it. I did anything and would of done anything. Her mess up this time and not mine.
My first listen and I already like it better than any other record Yellowcard has put out. There was always one or two tracks I didn't much care for on each record. Don't get me wrong I love Yellowcard. They're an awesome pop/rock band. Have always really enjoyed them.
So I listen to this with my headphones at work. I always do that with albums because it's my favorite way to listen and learn. To feel the music. I must say I actually like every single song. There are some pretty damn good ones and thank you Yellowcard for finally writing a slow/ballad type song that doesn't blow. I know you can write the fast and up tempo songs, but I've felt you've always struggled in the acoustic/slower tempo songs. Just my opinion.
I must say I'm super ecstatic to pick this up on the 22nd. Loving The Sound of You and Me, For You, and Your Denial, With You Around, Soundtrack, Sing for Me (the ballad), See Me Smiling, and Be the Young.
Pretty much every track haha, but they're all so damn good. Lights and Sounds has officially moved down to my second favorite YC album along with One for the Kids. With Paper Walls being tied for third with Ocean Avenue. Thanks for coming back and ripping it up guys. Awesome album..
Can definitely say this will be getting a lot of play time.
"Out of time, all out of fight. You are the only thing in life that I got right"
EDIT: I love the "Only One" reference in "With You Around". Awesome.
Oh man I love The Audition. Threw on Great Danger and it's the perfect cd for this Spring type weather. Puts me in a great mood, loving life. Especially since it's Spring Break now. Super stoked.
Not gonna lie. They remind me of her. One of her favorites that I showed her, but I won't let her ruin them for me. The Audition are to great to give up. haha.
This Spring Break should be awesome. Have some stuff planned with friends all that good shit.
Man I really wish she even gave to cares about me. That's always been my worst thing. I never could understand how people can let go and give up on someone they "love" so easily. It's baffled me for all of my relationships haha.
Oh well. Here's to Spring Break and making bad decisions haha. The title of their album is exactly what I'm expecting this Spring Break haha. Great Danger!!!!!
So this is my probably 20th blog about this band, but I don't care. You all read at your own discretion.
Picked up Lucky Street on Tuesday at Target for 8 bucks. Popped it in my car and even tho gas is retarded high right now I cruised around with my buddy Rob and just listened. The good old times when we would find our other classics.
I must say after a couple days and countless listens I can say this is an amazing album from start to finish. Completely blew my expectations out of the water. They were pretty damn high too. I already had a pretty big soft spot for this band, but they really didn't let me down or fuck around when they wrote and recorded this. We all have our classics like TSL Say it like you mean it, or Rufio's Perhaps I suppose. Well this is Go Radio's Take this to your grave among the others I've listed. A classic for sure. Each song is unique and awesome in it's own right. Even the remakes have a new feel and dynamic. If you like good pop rock listen to this. It's well worth the purchase.
I can't say enough good things about this album. I know I"ll be spinning it for quite some time and could potentially be my album of the year.
Boys you have completely out done yourselves. And I thank you for that. I haven't liked or been this drawn into a cd in awhile. I think the last one was TDS Reach for the sun and can't even remember the one before that. I have so much more to say about this album, but I'll save it haha. You'll probably get the gist of it.
Favorites are, Singing With the King, Swear It Like You Mean It, Hold On and House of Hallways. Simply amazing.
"Cause God knows I've made all my own choices. And if I drown alone it's cause I choose."
Totally dropped the soap in the shower the other day ;). But as I stood up I jacked my head on the door handle. So sore.
Then my buddy got a new knife a Gerrber or something. I barely touch it to see if it's sharp or dull and it splits my finger open.
I'm scared of what's coming next haha. I never get hurt, but lately it's like every other day.
But tonight was awesome, can't complain about that at all :).
Got Marvel Vs. Capcom 3 the other day. Love the 2nd and the 3rd is pretty awesome, but man I'm getting to that age were I make sure I want what I'm spending my money on. 64 bucks is a lot. Oh well it's not like I buy games all the time. But I did also order You, Me and Everyone We Knows second EP. So Young, So Insane. Love it and needed to add it to my cd collection. I wish I could find out if their first was ever released physically.
Hmm what else is new? Glad we don't have school on Monday.. Stoked to pick up Bayside's Killing Time on Tuesday. Started running again since the weather is nice. Definitely gonna get back in shape real quick.
Prayers for my grandfather. His prostate cancer came back, but they don't think it's serious so that's good. My other grandparents are going to a retirement home. Grandma has Alz and grandpa is 88 and getting to old to take care of her. I love that man. Just thinking of all the stuff he's seen. WW2 and Vietnam. JFK, MLK the invention of tv, the landing on the moon. I would love to have seen what he has seen. Maybe not the war stuff, but all that history in one man. Crazyness.
Hope everyone is good.
Oh yeah and I got a 117pt word on words with friends. Awesome shit. haha