Sometimes I just get so tired of life.. The unfairness, the reality that nothing can ever be perfect and just when you think it's all great something super fucking gay happens.
I'm just so tired... The kind of tired where you don't ever want to wake up. Or wished you would wake up to a different life.
It's one of those moments where I wished that I could just leave this god forsaken city and start all over. Brand new in a new place. New people, new friends, new everything. Pretend nothing ever happened.
I realize the one thing I miss the most is that feeling. You know. The new feeling the feelings you get when you're in like sophomore and freshman year. The best years of your life. Everything is new first gf, first parties.. I guess I just wish I could be a kid forever.
Growing up wouldn't be so bad if parents where cool and could remember how it was to be a kid/growing adult. They forget how hard life is and think we should be perfect. It's like we are supposed to make up for all their fuck ups too.
It's funny when I think about the future I always forget and then realize that the future hasn't been written yet. Nobody knows what's to come... We always day dream about the future, but we really don't know. It's cool when you realize that.. Anything can happen.
Well thanks for letting me rant..
"Lets get fucked up and die.. I'm speaking figuratively of course"
I remember listening to these guys about two/three years ago and absolutely hating them. I gave my Ex so much shit for listening to them... Now I feel retarded.
I recently decided to give them a try again and holy crap their last album was catchy as hell! I'm glad I decided to try them on for size again. I'm really digging "The Closest I am to Living On the Edge" Great song. The whole album is pretty solid and after listening to "Holiday" I'm pretty stoked for the new stuff.
I'm proud to say I'm am now a Valencia fan.. hahaha
Also, the new There For Tomorrow song is excellent. More of the same, but great none the less. I can't stop listening to it. Glad the EP is only 4 bucks. This is a great summer for good music.
"I gave it all.. the thought you said you needed, but the minutes got repeated.. far to long"
So I'm super bored and I like to type so why not write a blog!
Hmm what's new?! Nothing really to much with me. Summer is summer, I'm waiting for it to kick in like it usually does. It's been pretty good so far.
Looking forward to the upcoming concerts and such. Spill Canvas, Warped Tour, and Finch/Scary Kids.
Also looking forward to the new HTL and The Maine albums. The new songs for both are already off the chain (in the words of Tom Green). I can't get Everything You Asked for out of my head and Drop the Girl is constantly playing on my iPod.
I pre-ordered Hit the Lights from Merch Direct. I just really wanted that shirt what can I say!?
Hopefully Best Buy doesn't have any exclusives cause I hate missing out on extra tracks and such.
Well I guess that is about if for my boring blog. Sorry if anyone read this. hahaha
"Drop the girl she's only gunning for you heart, she's sure to leave you broke and bleeding"
"She covers her tracks and buries the clues"
"and I don't even know whatís right anymore, waiting day and night for your kiss... just once more because Iíd love to feel my heart soar, instead of this heart sore
and i donít even know whatís right anymore, so come on everybody lets see if i can die a little more..not only on the surface, but were it hurts the most..
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (my heart is not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (I am not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (toys can be fixed)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (especially with the heart i donít have anymore)"
hahaha, Okay I wrote this Chorus a while back. I was listening to a lot of Brand New at the time. I would like anything you can bash it you can say cool. W/e just leave a comment. I really wanna know what you think. I've never thought my self to be a good writer, but I like it.
SO hit it up! Please
Edit: I'm also aware that it may be pretty clique, but that is okay. Can't write songs about railroad tracks, or fucking hoes all the time.
I hate feeling alone, my minds like an empty carousel. Spinning, working, doing nothing.
I'm still so emotionless. I love how we can just put on an act and pretend to be happy.. But then again thats what people are best at. Acting, I believe people don't change. They just portray.
Don't get me wrong I'm happy with most things in my life. It just feels like unfinished business, shit I just can't let go. You invest everything you have into something (someone) and it leaves you nothing in the end.
Just hopelessness and regrets, the thing I hate the most and that I think everyone hates is regrets. Hating the feeling of it being a regret, because at one time it made you the happiest ever and now that same thing makes you the most miserable ever.
I should be over this and I mostly am. It's that last little thread that needs to be cut. But, you never loose your love for someone, it just hides it's face. All I need is someone to bury that face, and cover it with their own. So when I close my eyes I see their face smiling at me not a reel of frames, memories that are what I never wanted them to become. Just memories.
I want to feel alive again. I've only been pretending, because I once knew what it felt like.
It sucks being in love with what someone once was. That perfect thing that completed you, now I'm left with a bad taste in my mouth knowing what that person pretends to be. But I know, and they know.
"So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me"