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A Sailor's Journal
06/20/08 at 08:56 PM by billyboatkid
Sometimes I just get so tired of life.. The unfairness, the reality that nothing can ever be perfect and just when you think it's all great something super fucking gay happens.

I'm just so tired... The kind of tired where you don't ever want to wake up. Or wished you would wake up to a different life.

It's one of those moments where I wished that I could just leave this god forsaken city and start all over. Brand new in a new place. New people, new friends, new everything. Pretend nothing ever happened.

I realize the one thing I miss the most is that feeling. You know. The new feeling the feelings you get when you're in like sophomore and freshman year. The best years of your life. Everything is new first gf, first parties.. I guess I just wish I could be a kid forever.

Growing up wouldn't be so bad if parents where cool and could remember how it was to be a kid/growing adult. They forget how hard life is and think we should be perfect. It's like we are supposed to make up for all their fuck ups too.

It's funny when I think about the future I always forget and then realize that the future hasn't been written yet. Nobody knows what's to come... We always day dream about the future, but we really don't know. It's cool when you realize that.. Anything can happen.

Well thanks for letting me rant..

"Lets get fucked up and die.. I'm speaking figuratively of course"

Tags: Motion City, Life, Changes
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06/13/08 at 12:12 PM by billyboatkid
So I get a super late pass....

I remember listening to these guys about two/three years ago and absolutely hating them. I gave my Ex so much shit for listening to them... Now I feel retarded.

I recently decided to give them a try again and holy crap their last album was catchy as hell! I'm glad I decided to try them on for size again. I'm really digging "The Closest I am to Living On the Edge" Great song. The whole album is pretty solid and after listening to "Holiday" I'm pretty stoked for the new stuff.

I'm proud to say I'm am now a Valencia fan.. hahaha

Also, the new There For Tomorrow song is excellent. More of the same, but great none the less. I can't stop listening to it. Glad the EP is only 4 bucks. This is a great summer for good music.

"I gave it all.. the thought you said you needed, but the minutes got repeated.. far to long"

Sooo fucking catchy.

Tags: Valencia, TFT, Great Music
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Super Boredom
06/08/08 at 02:27 PM by billyboatkid
So I'm super bored and I like to type so why not write a blog!

Hmm what's new?! Nothing really to much with me. Summer is summer, I'm waiting for it to kick in like it usually does. It's been pretty good so far.

Looking forward to the upcoming concerts and such. Spill Canvas, Warped Tour, and Finch/Scary Kids.

Also looking forward to the new HTL and The Maine albums. The new songs for both are already off the chain (in the words of Tom Green). I can't get Everything You Asked for out of my head and Drop the Girl is constantly playing on my iPod.

I pre-ordered Hit the Lights from Merch Direct. I just really wanted that shirt what can I say!?

Hopefully Best Buy doesn't have any exclusives cause I hate missing out on extra tracks and such.

Well I guess that is about if for my boring blog. Sorry if anyone read this. hahaha

"Drop the girl she's only gunning for you heart, she's sure to leave you broke and bleeding"
"She covers her tracks and buries the clues"

Tags: Hit the Lights, The Maine, Boredom to the Max
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Life Changing
06/02/08 at 09:55 PM by billyboatkid
I love going on a Journey with two of your best friends and it ending up to be a great bonding experience.

Learning life lessons and such.. I missed this site and my updates tho.

But I'm back! So let it resume and let the summer continue in a great fashion.

"This time I think it could be perfect"

Tags: Montana, Life, Midtown
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05/19/08 at 09:52 AM by billyboatkid
Ah, everything came together oh so nicely.

In about 12 hours I will be on my way to lovely Montana.

I couldn't be anymore stoked for this trip.

Start of the summer is going to glorious.

"You think you've got me down, you've barely come around"

Tags: Trip, Montana, Lovers Make Liars
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05/16/08 at 07:53 PM by billyboatkid
Well it looks like I won't be on AP as often as usual.. Fuck my work.

They decided today that it should be blocked. I hate work now, I think It's time for a new job!

P.S. It still hurts

"I heard a voice last night it said wake and open your eyes. Wake up, walk out tonight, cause she don't care if you're dead or alive"

Tags: Work, Bull Shit, Yellowcard
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Super OCD
05/13/08 at 11:48 PM by billyboatkid
Wow, so I pretty much went through my WHOLE iTunes and re-organized every single thing... I feel like I have super OCD now.

Every single band is in it's respective place, every thing has album art or some kind of art, everything that is a demo or acoustic or anything else is in a certain place. All ep' are marked [EP].

I even went as far as to capitalize and lower case every single title to every single cd and song.

Everything is super consistent. 4000 plus songs. Wow, I have no life.

"This is where I say I've had enough. No one should ever feel the way I feel now. A walking open wound, a trophy display of bruises and I don't believe that I am getting any better."

Tags: OCD, Dashboard, iTunes
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Been a while..
05/12/08 at 12:23 PM by billyboatkid
So it seems like it's been a while since I've written in this here blog of sorts.

What's been going on, well nothing actually. Summer is upon us and I can't wait to get the fuck out of this city.

Seven days until I'm on the road to Montana. This should be a most excellent adventure.

Besides being super stoked for that I just received my Stages and Stereos EP in the mail.
The only thing is that on their myspace they said it had 5 songs, but it only has four.

Oh well they are still amazing in my book. I just can't seem to get enough of his voice.
You guys should check them out, only five bucks.

Well thats my two cents.

Hope everyones start to summer is great!

"Please don't let me forget about tomorrow! I gave up on yesterday a long time ago and I'm waiting for the perfect time to call you. To let you know I'm never coming home!"


P.S. I totally forgot! So guess who texts my best bud Robert!? My ex asking if I was alright cause she heard about the crash. What a bitch lol.
Tags: S&S, Montana, 7 days
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Living Dead
05/05/08 at 10:26 PM by billyboatkid
So yeah, I went and got my demolished phone from the people who found it like a hundred feet from the car. They showed me what had happened and where we hit and pictures.

Then I talked to Ruben the kid who was driving and even he said that we were so lucky.. He said we should probably be dead right now..

I thank God I'm not. I do believe in god, I'm Catholic.

I'm glad we both are okay and I'm surprised we both aren't a lot worse. My side was like scrap metal.. I don't know how I even got out on my own. The door was bent in towards me.

"You left your heart and a note on the dashboard"

Tags: Stages and stereos, Crash, God,
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05/04/08 at 11:26 AM by billyboatkid
So last night I got in a car wreck with my friend.

It was horrible we slid into a high curb doing fifty (I think).

The glass cut up my face and I fucked up my arm and my ribs pretty bad. They hurt like a bitch.

I don't feel like going into a long story about it, because last night was amazing up until that happened and it all went to shit.

My face and side are burning, the air bags like ripped layers of skin off. My ribs are bruised to hell too.

I'm still a little dazed, when I got out of the car I almost passed out.

It's weird I've never actually passed out, but have been close many times.

Well fuck this shit I'm at work in pain, all messed up so. I hope everyone is doing all right.


"My face hits the windshield
There's glass all around
Get out of the car
Scott my God what just happened?

Take me home I can't even see straight
Pick out the glass that's stuck into my face
I can't go home cause I know it's the wrong place
It's out of the question but I'll be there"
Tags: Crash, Pain, Sydney
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Oh My God
05/04/08 at 03:11 AM by billyboatkid
Okay, so tonight I almost died...

I'll give more details later because my ribs hurt and my face hurts.

I thank God I'm alive.

Seriously, this isn't a joke either.
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Observe and Report
04/30/08 at 08:00 PM by billyboatkid
So, today I was called for another movie.

It's called Observe and Report. Featuring Seth Rogen (superbad), Ray Liotta (no clue), and Anna Faris (scary movies).

My call time is from 6 p.m. till 6 a.m.

This should be a lot of fun like the other ones.

Hamlet 2 comes out soon and you should all check it out. I played a football player in that one. It is super hilarious.

Well thats the update nukka's


"You're a fake, a product of the world, an average mistake"
Tags: Movies, FTSK, Money
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Guns Don't Kill People, Girls Kill People
04/29/08 at 10:17 PM by billyboatkid
"and I don't even know whatís right anymore, waiting day and night for your kiss... just once more because Iíd love to feel my heart soar, instead of this heart sore
and i donít even know whatís right anymore, so come on everybody lets see if i can die a little more..not only on the surface, but were it hurts the most..

please donít play games/because i was never good at them (my heart is not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (I am not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (toys can be fixed)

please donít play games/because i was never good at them (especially with the heart i donít have anymore)"

hahaha, Okay I wrote this Chorus a while back. I was listening to a lot of Brand New at the time. I would like anything you can bash it you can say cool. W/e just leave a comment. I really wanna know what you think. I've never thought my self to be a good writer, but I like it.

SO hit it up! Please


Edit: I'm also aware that it may be pretty clique, but that is okay. Can't write songs about railroad tracks, or fucking hoes all the time.
Tags: Lyrics, Comments, BN
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04/29/08 at 09:34 PM by billyboatkid
I hate feeling alone, my minds like an empty carousel. Spinning, working, doing nothing.

I'm still so emotionless. I love how we can just put on an act and pretend to be happy.. But then again thats what people are best at. Acting, I believe people don't change. They just portray.

Don't get me wrong I'm happy with most things in my life. It just feels like unfinished business, shit I just can't let go. You invest everything you have into something (someone) and it leaves you nothing in the end.

Just hopelessness and regrets, the thing I hate the most and that I think everyone hates is regrets. Hating the feeling of it being a regret, because at one time it made you the happiest ever and now that same thing makes you the most miserable ever.

I should be over this and I mostly am. It's that last little thread that needs to be cut. But, you never loose your love for someone, it just hides it's face. All I need is someone to bury that face, and cover it with their own. So when I close my eyes I see their face smiling at me not a reel of frames, memories that are what I never wanted them to become. Just memories.

I want to feel alive again. I've only been pretending, because I once knew what it felt like.

It sucks being in love with what someone once was. That perfect thing that completed you, now I'm left with a bad taste in my mouth knowing what that person pretends to be. But I know, and they know.

"So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've realized
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me"

"It's called breaking(up), because it's broken"


You can only play pretend for so long...
Tags: Feelings, Daphne Loves, Mayday, Fuck
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Mario Kart
04/28/08 at 08:14 PM by billyboatkid
So I get home and my dad as defied parental law. He has bought Mario Kart Wii!

I swear my parents like to surprise us. I can't wait to hit it up. Just thought I would let you in on my excitement. haha

"I drink my self stupid, till your name does not even ring a bell.
This glass my prescription, overdose on new addictions!"


Keep it classy.

O and buy the new Stages and Stereos EP. Only 5 dollars NO SHIPPING CHARGES. You'll love.
Tags: Pathway, Mario Kart
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