"and I don't even know whatís right anymore, waiting day and night for your kiss... just once more because Iíd love to feel my heart soar, instead of this heart sore
and i donít even know whatís right anymore, so come on everybody lets see if i can die a little more..not only on the surface, but were it hurts the most..
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (my heart is not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (I am not a toy)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (toys can be fixed)
please donít play games/because i was never good at them (especially with the heart i donít have anymore)"
hahaha, Okay I wrote this Chorus a while back. I was listening to a lot of Brand New at the time. I would like anything you can bash it you can say cool. W/e just leave a comment. I really wanna know what you think. I've never thought my self to be a good writer, but I like it.
SO hit it up! Please
Edit: I'm also aware that it may be pretty clique, but that is okay. Can't write songs about railroad tracks, or fucking hoes all the time.
I hate feeling alone, my minds like an empty carousel. Spinning, working, doing nothing.
I'm still so emotionless. I love how we can just put on an act and pretend to be happy.. But then again thats what people are best at. Acting, I believe people don't change. They just portray.
Don't get me wrong I'm happy with most things in my life. It just feels like unfinished business, shit I just can't let go. You invest everything you have into something (someone) and it leaves you nothing in the end.
Just hopelessness and regrets, the thing I hate the most and that I think everyone hates is regrets. Hating the feeling of it being a regret, because at one time it made you the happiest ever and now that same thing makes you the most miserable ever.
I should be over this and I mostly am. It's that last little thread that needs to be cut. But, you never loose your love for someone, it just hides it's face. All I need is someone to bury that face, and cover it with their own. So when I close my eyes I see their face smiling at me not a reel of frames, memories that are what I never wanted them to become. Just memories.
I want to feel alive again. I've only been pretending, because I once knew what it felt like.
It sucks being in love with what someone once was. That perfect thing that completed you, now I'm left with a bad taste in my mouth knowing what that person pretends to be. But I know, and they know.
"So I don't have to, hold on to this burning heart
This burning heart is getting old, getting old
And while I'm sitting on this cold kitchen floor,
Head down to hide the tears,
I've finally realized that you were never meant for me"
Well, well, well. Okay so the main reason I made this blog was to ask for an invite to Waffles or What.cd for those who know what they are. I'm a member of Itleaked so I will gladly give you and invite in exchange. So if anyone reads this and is feeling generious. so..
Looks like another year has almost come to an end. I coldn't be more happy!
So yesterday I moved like three tons of bricks and rocks with my dad. Horrible, but at least it got done.
I'm really looking forward to Montana, because now my best buddy is going with me to go see our other best buddy. haha
It's gonna be a great trip hopefully, two weeks out in the forests of Montana, no work, new people, and no worries. Thats why we're taking up a quad and some trip devices aka(shrooms) haha
In the forest, it should be pretty cool.
So how is everyone else?! Doing good I hope. Stoked to finally get my hardcopy of FTSK on Tuesday and GTA 4 is coming out which is getting perfect scores from practically everyone!
Hmmm what else is new. I have about 5 papers to write by Thursday.. My room has been done for a week now. It's so killer with the wood floors.
So I've had the pleasure of hearing the new Forever the Sickest Kids - Underdog Alma Mater cd a bit early. As have many of the people on this site. Boy is it catchy as hell.
I'm seriously loving this cd. I was expecting from them something catchy and fun and it went above and beyond that for me. The songs are all good, the lyrics are decent. The only downfall is that the re-done tracks; Believe me I'm lying, and Breakdown are all watered down. I liked the more raw energy that was on the EP. She's a Lady isn't to bad it still has that raw feeling. Hey Brittany and Coffee Break only got better.
The new tracks fit right in with FTSK's foutain of pop goodness. Stand out tracks are My Worst Nightmare, Phone Call, Woah Oh, and Catastrophe. The other three songs are damn good too.
This record has shaped up to be my start of the summer cd. Up until HTL comes out with their new stuff. Everybody should deff. pick this up if they like fun, dancy music. Best Buy has two bonus tracks, and so does iTunes.
On another note tomorrow is 4/20. I don't smoke that much like once every two weeks or so, but tomorrow should be really fun.
Keep it funky fresh everyone. haha
"Wake up from the drama scene, stick around it'll bury me. Get away hurry up come on, this is becoming a catastrophe!"
So it seems that school is close to the end. I couldn't be more excited. This should be an awesome summer. Especially with the list of things I have already planned.
1. Go to Montana for a week and a half to hang with my bro.
2. Warped Tour June 26th
3. Then Chicago for Lallopalooza. I've always wanted to take a train it should be sick.
And to top it all off I've been fixing up my room. Taking out the carpet and putting in wood flooring. It's gonna be killer especially since I'm saving up for a 5-0. Or in other words a fifty inch LCD tv. haha
Other than that I can't wait for schoool to be over. I fucking hate it. O well. At least there is something to look forward to.
"i love the way i said goodbye
this is my exit and your time to shine
so let me go, stop the search cause i found what i'm looking for
just like my favorite scene from my favorite movie
the world was spinning underneath my feet
but this ain't no Hollywood ending"
I love the delivery of this chorus. Search the City.
Mediocre lyrics, but the guys got a voice.
Okay so you know how when you're just relaxing and thinking and something clicks in your mind and you come up with lyrics. Well that just happened and I felt the need to write them down. So tell me what you think or not it's all good.
Lies are like oceans, the deeper it gets the colder you are. My lungs have failed me, I breathed you in (to deep) but I can (could) only hold my breath for so long.
You left in a flash like the air getting knocked out of me. I know recovery is the best part, just let me know when I'll be able to breath again...
I feel like I could keep going, but yeah.
If anyone reads this and has a second give me some pointers or anything would be cool.
Lol, so I'm sitting here in my college's computer lab listening to Search the City on from their myspace page. I forgot to turn off my iPod last night and it was on repeat all night. So no iPod for today... Shitty.
The reason I am writing this from school is because my friend forgot pants because he had chem lab today. SO being the good friend I am I brought him a pair so he could do his mid term. Adam saves the day again lol. jk
Other than that I only have one class today so I'm pretty stoked and after that I am going to go see Drill Bit Taylor with a couple buddies for free. Then tomorrow is Friday and the week is over! Fuck yeah.
O and in recent news I finally finished paying off Final Fantasy: Crisis Core. Yet, I have no PSP to play it on. What can I say I love FF7.. Hmm there is probably something I'm forgetting to say, but o well.
"Because wearing my Heart on my sleeve has become a tad to messy for me"
So I heard about this band a long long time ago. Like back in the day... which my friend says was a wednesday. jk haha
Ok so I'm stoned as fuck. I hadn't smoked in like three weeks and well I did and it was a fun time.
I just came home in my fog, and go to my special site and see that their new cd is up for download. So I just randomly dled it and I must say I like it a lot for some crazy reason. It just increases my mood, I'm like super happy right now lol. I think I'm going to buy this now, its pretty damn catchy and I love the instruments they are so creative or sound that way when you're super baked.
Well I don't mean to bother I just felt like writing a blog and shit.
So don't you just love how everything is peachy-kean then all the sudden everything goes to shit!
Well it seems to happen to me a lot... Whoever is controlling or whatever is controlling what goes on in my life must really fucking hate me.
So apparently while I was out last night after I cashed a 40oz and was bowling with some friends (which by the way is damn fun) my car got broken into for the second time in three years.
They took my deck and my 12" bazooka tube (which is a bass if you didn' know). I loved that bass, I had purchased it right after my shit got stolen the first time. So I'm pissed..... and to ever lets this stuff happen well Fuck You too.
"Then there are just so many words left in my mouth waiting to spill out, like water in your ears. I'd do anything to get back all those wasted years"
Lame I know, but hey I've always liked writing down my thoughts or just random things even if no body really cares. So for the last four hours I have been listening to Illuminate by Lydia. Let me tell you, everything thing you've been hearing about this cd is truth. Every song gets stuck in your head and it doesn't matter because you want to listen to it over and over again...
Don't cheat yourself get this cd, see them, love them.
So back to my real life! I'm going bowling! Woooo I love bowling, today on Wii I got a 222! New personal best. So me and my friends decided we might just go and try it out for real with some girlies. I love socializing, it's good for the mind and soul. I actually don't think I could ever live alone.. I hate being alone.. I love company. I'm a people person, what can I say lol.
Well off to bowl, wish me luck. If I do good I'll post it haha. But don't hold your breath.
"I've been sleeping with this silence in my mind..."