When you start to realize that you had it right.. Yeah there were things I could have worked on, did better, but I wasn't given the chance. But everything they realize now I had already been doing. Just shows me even more that it takes two and I wasn't the only reason things didn't work out when they could have and should have. I had a few things wrong, but I had a lot of it right. Especially the heart. Makes me see that it really is a choice.
Sleeping With Sirens - "James Dean and Audrey Hepburn"
I know one day it'll hit like a ton of bricks.
I think I'm gonna get that line tattooed on my forearms. One line on each arm.
"they say that Love is forever" "your forever is all that I need"
The Early November used to be one of my favorite bands of all time. I remember having a mix with them Finch, The Starting Line and Blink 182 back in like 7th grade.
I remember downloading music for hours at a time from Kazaa Lite. The first time my home computer crashed and I lost everything... Thousands of songs and music videos, stand up and stuff.
The Early November bring back a lot of memories. I was sad when they left.
Just heard their new album.. Shouldn't be out for a while now, but wow. I didn't expect to like it as much as I am. Especially after first listen. They grew with me, I guess I grew with them. I'm not a jaded fan. I realize bands grow and change and I'm glad they do. Definitely when It's in a good direction.
I can't wait to add this album to my collection. Just picked up a physical of the new Sleeping With Sirens EP. Amazing.
Got it at Warped yesterday. Have to say it was an amazing time. Probably one of the best I've been to. EVen tho Yellowcard didn't play for some reason.. Lame
Got to see Miss May I, Bayside, Senses Fail, ATL, NFG, Sleeping With Sirens, Memphis May Fire, Pierce the Veil, TBS, The Used among a few others. I have to say that's a pretty badass day of concert going. Got mad sunburned haha but it's already faded and I'm brown. I told people I get brown and they didn't believe me until I showed them haha. I just don't get a lot of sun..
I guess I'll update later. I always just jot shit down.
The Early November - "Tell Me Why"
Edit: Oh yeah it's been officially 6 months since I've had a soda. My New Year's resolution was to give it up for a year. Half way there. Mark it off my bucket list I guess haha. Finish a NY resolution. It's not that hard to do, anything for that matter. Just gotta want to.
I absolutely love this line. Almost as much as, "I was constructed for you and you were molded for me"
It holds so much weight in that one sentence to me. I meant that with all my heart.
I'd love to get this tattooed on me. Or with someone I really care about. They get the first half and I get the second. I love this song and band. One of tIhe bands I'm looking forward to seeing most at Warped Tour
Their new acoustic EP is perfect.
If you were a movie, this would be your soundtrack.
This and the new Pierce the Veil are hitting me perfect right now. Love them and needed them.
I'm really starting to like someone. It's kinda of weird and scary.. Haha fuck.
It's been awhile since I've written anything worth some thing. Went and returned from Washington DC. 26 hour road trip. Was an experience. I'm proud to be an American. Sounds stupid but seeing all that stuff the monuments and white house makes you appreciate where you came from and our history. But yeah it was a great time. Another escape in a sense..
I just lost my grandpa two months ago and his wife my grandma whose had alzhiemer's for the last 13 years recently took a fall and isn't doing well. I'm probably gonna lose her to pretty soon. She has water on her brain and isn't doing too well. It's hard. Especially after losing him. The way she looks at me. She knows me and knows she loves me more than anything but can't remember my name.. It's just hard.
This had been one of the toughest years of my life. I feel like I've been through a lot. I've already lost two people that meant everything to me and now I'm losing a third all within three months. I just hope things change. Start to look up. I love you grandma.
I'm the most optimistic person I know. My buddy Devan told me last night that "I genuinely care about everyone. That I have a huge heart". It made me feel good he sees that in me. Others have said that but when he did it meant a lot. I don't like burdening people with my problems or issues. It's just me I'm independent. It spills over into everything and it's not always a good thing but I feel like it makes me strong and weak at the same time.
Idk I trust things will work out. They always have a way of doing just that.
I still have my music. Wrote a lot of new stuff recently. Outlet I guess.
I'll edit this later since I usually write it from my phone.
I'm not really one to get into hardcore/metal bands.. About the hardest I listen to is A Day to Remember. Which is nothing if you really think about it. But the other day my best buddy Rob threw on some new stuff that he had just gotten into too. I've heard of these guys before, but never gave them a chance. I usually just lumped all those hardcore bands into a biased category of music I'd never listen to.
But for some reason like so many other bands at certain times it just hit me at the right time. Full force. I absolutely love this band. Memphis May Fire and their last release called The Hollow. It's pretty hard, but I love the clean vocals. Especially his voice. I also love that I can actually understand what the screamer/growler is saying. Most the time it's so bad I can't understand half the crap that is coming out of the screamers mouth.
This is just what I needed I think. A little different then I'm used to, but I'm always up for a change and this is a good one. Not like I'm gonna start loving hardcore music. I just like being able to listen to a band like this then shoot to Earth, Wind and Fire, then be in the mood for The Spill Canvas or Jazz haha. I love music and I'm glad I found a new appreciation for this type of music and definitely this band. I gotta see them live now on Warped. Just another band to add to the list of bands I want to see this year. I think the count is 14. This year is probably gonna be the best year I've ever been.
"The Unfaithful" & "The Haunted"
Edit: It's cool to see my blog up on the charts. Maybe one day I won't be just one the one with the most blog posts, but also most views. I'm getting up there. Almost 70k. That's awesome.
So today I was hanging with my buddy Rob and our friend Sean aka (Asian Sean). Known him since middle school. Pretty cool guy. So we get on the topic of Astrology and lately I've been finding it very interesting. Idk why just have. So I was learning a lot of new stuff I'd never even known or thought about before. He's kind of into an told me I was a straight capricorn because I was born right in the middle, not near either ends really. And found out my moon is Scorpio which means that's my personality "at night" or how I act. Essentially my other side. So I start looking stuff up which I've posted beneath. It just blew my mind how similar I am to both Capricorn traits and some of Scorpios. It's quite crazy to see how I get some from both of the signs. Super interesting if nothing else. I still can't believe how well both signs suit me. Then we started talking about people and their signs and relating it to their behavior and it was cool cause a lot of it made sense and clicked. Makes ya think. But yeah it was just a good deep talk. I love having those haha. The first one is pretty spot on. The second is just interesting to see some of Scorpios ways. I'm by no means a astrology nut. Just something cool to learn about, look into.
I can't explain how excited I am for the new Spill Canvas record and the new Yellowcard record. Along with many others that we will be getting this year. It's a great year for new music in my eyes. A lot of my favorite bands are releasing albums. And so far I couldn't be more stoked from what I've heard.
The songs that The Spill Canvas have released so far are excellent and Gestalt comes out tonight. It's already past midnight, but I'm guessing that's Pacific time. I know it's gonna be absolutely amazing. One of my favorite bands.
Now as for Yellowcard. Their new single is absolutely badass as hell. Super catchy. Love the vocals and lyrics and everything. The melody and chorus are killer. I'm actually listening to it again for the 5th or so time as I write this. I absolutely loved When You're Through Thinking Say Yes, but already this song as me more hyped than I was for that album. I feel like this is gonna be Ocean Avenue's little brother, but just as huge and amazing as that album came to be for many people. They're back and I can't wait to hear it in it's entirety. Especially that song with Patrick Stump from Fall Out Boy and the one with all the guest singers.
Getting me even more excited to see them on Warped Tour this year. One of the bands I'm looking forward to seeing most.
I'm sure I'll post my impressions and thoughts on TSC later and probably Yellowcard at some point.
"You only care about yourself. Never took the time to think about somebody else. You think about yourself, dragged me to the edge of Hell and never cared if I fell."
I can't put into words how perfect this line is..
"How can you live with yourself?"
Within the last 6 months there was a spot in my beard that had no hair. There was hair before, but I came to realize all the stresses and everything I was going through had made it fall out. Or stop growing. It was a perfect circle where the hair stopped growing. The other day I noticed that it had come back.. I don't have that spot anymore.. I got my beard back. Among other things.
Can't come soon enough. Can't wait to get away. Finished all my finals and now I'm ready for some summer before I get that new job and possible take some summer classes. We will see about that tho. I think I'll be fine with the new job making bank haha.
Losing that weight again. I kinda gained some back. Not a lot, but a little. I tend to fluctuate when I'm happy. But 3 miles a day should do it. All skinny and ripped up. Muwahaha.
It's so funny when I mess with my friends because they treat me like a big bear. They fuck with me then don't expect me to be that strong haha. It's awesome.\\
The Spill Canvas just released the last song from their new album before it gets out on the 22nd. Already super stoked for this all three tracks are amazing. To: Chicago, From: San Francisco and Off a Cliff. I can't be anymore excited for this album to drop next Tuesday. It's gonna be perfection. I know it.
It's funny to me that her new "fiance" is talking crap..
Firstly, I don't talk to her anymore. I left her alone and am being respectful I did everything in my power to prove my love. I don't talk shit, I don't bother her or call her, I don't even talk to my friends about her anymore. Yet you're gonna pop off like you know me or what was our situation?? Go fuck yourself.
I'm done letting people walk over me. I'm standing up for myself and if you wanna talk shit go ahead. I'll gladly break your nose and any other bone I get my hands on. I don't talk shit, you want to talk shit I'll beat your ass. I don't need to talk I can and will back it up. She knows I'm not kidding.
I'll gladly rearrange your fucked up eyes for you. If you only knew what happened between us and what's up you wouldn't be so high up on your horse. She doesn't love you like she loved me, she's settling for your dumb ass. She's making a rash decision and probably the biggest mistake she'll ever make in her life. So worry about yourself.
If you wanna talk shit do it to my face. I could have easily been a "tool" about this situation. But I'm not and haven't been. You my friend have proven that you are an idiot and oh so mature.
I know he doesn't read this or even know about it, but I had to let out my anger in some way and it won't be over twitter. So if she reads this.. I hope she know that if I see him out in public and he wants to start shitting from his mouth I won't hesitate to close it. It takes a lot for me to get mad and even more to fight. So good job you've made my shit list. I punched cinder block and wood for the first 10 years of my life. Your face will be a lot softer.
The fact that she looks at my twitter feed off of his.. buddy she's getting on YOUR twitter to look at my tweets. Wake up buddy. You're second best. She's just too stubborn.. and even after she told me she was marrying your dumb ass she couldn't even tell me she didn't love me anymore.. so many reasons I know this is a joke. She told me a a week or two before you asked her that you were barely dating. That I've been the only person to make her feel the way she has. There is so much love and history you have no idea. I respect her and will always love her even after what she put me through, but you pissed me off and now I hope I see you in public.
It's been a while since I've written a new blog. I mean I have I guess, but an actual one. Lot's been going on lately which is good.
Killed all my finals so I'm on track to graduate next year. Pretty sure I got straight A's which is awesome. Just waiting on one last grade.
Other than that I just bought Rob's and my tickets to Washington D.C. to go see the last third of our trifecta haha. Our best buddy Devan. Haven't seen him since after my first year of college, well actually he came into town one other time, but it was very brief. He now is married and has a two year old at the ripe old age of 22. He always loved to jump the gun on life, but I love him like a brother. So we are going out there for a week. Should be another awesome adventure just like going to Montana was. Perfect way to start the summer. Really stoked to see my best bud. To get away for a bit. Especially somewhere brand new.
Saw The Avengers at midnight the other night with a bunch of people. Awesome as expected.
Super stoked for all the new music coming out in the near future. Especially the new Spill Canvas album. The two new songs they've released have already topped my expectations and made up for their last few releases.
I've been having the best week and month and then I am cleaning my room.. and what do I find.. her 7 page letter.. Talking about soul mates and about what we had gone through last year.. Not even a year has passed and look at the situation she's in. Ridiculous. Especially after what was written in that letter and many others. Oh well I just put it in a safe place..
Oh YEAH! Super fucking ecstatic for Warped Tour this year. The lineup is outrageous. Gonna probably be the best one I've ever been too.
I have a lot more to say, but I guess I'll just save it for another blog!