By what, though, is hard to quantify. The way that I acted on this site two years ago almost pains me. Reading the reviews that I posted is almost laughable. My writing was juvenile, choppy and, in a lot of points, downright bad. The posts that I populated this blog with are shameful, and only serve to show me how much a whiny, annoying bitch I was as a sophomore/junior in high school. As for my posts in my blog comments/in the forums, those are just really annoying.
Hopefully, for all of your sakes, I've changed.
I'm in college now, I don't often wallow in my own self pity, and I'm studying Journalism, so I really should be a better writer. Who knows.
So, despite the fact that my last few blogs have been about music, I must revert back to my ways of yore and complain about girls. I thrive on this shit. Anyway, here are the details:
I like a girl that I work with on the newspaper
She knows I like her, doesn't like me back, shit sucks.
Regardless of that, things are better than ever between us
I haven't moved on from her, if only because I haven't really tried
Though I haven't moved on, I like another girl as well
She is in half of my classes, totally cool, we talk a lot
Here's the tricky part:
They are good friends, second girl knows I like first girl and has talked to me about it before. I fear she will always see me as "guy that likes my friend" as opposed to "guy that likes me". She doesn't know I liker her, so yeah.
Anyway, life is complicated, but some things are good. Too bad I can't focus on the positives.
1. The Antlers - Hospice
2. The Flaming Lips - Embryonic
3. Animal Collective - Merriweather Post Pavillion
4. Dirty Projectors - Bitte Orca
5. Grizzly Bear - Veckatimest
6. fun. - Aim and Ignite
7. Bibio - Ambivalence Avenue
8. Mos Def - The Ecstatic
9. Raekwon - Only Built For Cuban Linx II
10. The XX - XX
11. Fuck Bottons - Tarot Sport
12. Brother Ali - Us
13. Blueprint - Sign Language
14. Atlas Sound - Logos
15. Cymbals Eat Guitars - Why There Are Mountains
16. Mayer Hawthorne - A Strange Arrangement
17. Phoenix - Wolfgang Amadeus Phoenix 18. Built To Spill - There is No Enemy
19. Basement Jaxx - Scars
20. P.O.S. - Never Better
21. Dan Deacon - Bromst
22. Morrissey - Years of Refusal
23. Manchester Orchestra - Mean Everything to Nothing
24. Karen O and the Kids - Where The Wild Things Are
25. DOOM - Born Like This
26. Kid Cudi - Man on The Moon: The End of Day 27. Dinosaur Jr. - Farm
28. Busdriver - Jhelli Beam
29. Arctic Monkeys - Humbug
30. The Clientele - Bonfires On The Health
1. Broken Social Scene You Forgot It In People
2. Radiohead Kid A
3. Arcade Fire Funeral
4. The Flaming Lips Yoshimi Battles the Pink Robot
5. Animal Collective Sung Tongs
6. Madvillain Madvillainy
7. Ted Leo and The Pharmacists The Tyranny of Distance
8. Girl Talk Night Ripper
9. Ghostface Killah Supreme Clientele
10. The Mercury Program A Data Learn The Language
11. Sufjan Stevens Illinois
12. Kanye West Late Registration
13. The Avalanches Since I Left You
14. OutKast - Stankonia
15. Daft Punk Discovery
16. Wilco Yankee Hotel Foxtrot
17. Modest Mouse The Moon & Antarctica
18. The Knife Silent Shout
19. The Dismemberment Plan Change
20. The Microphones The Glow pt. 2
21. Death Cab for Cute Transatlanticism
22. Justin Timberlake FutureSex/LoveSounds
23. J Dilla Donuts
24. LCD Soundsystem Sound of Silver
25. Animal Collective Merriweather Post Pavilion
26. Broken Social Scene Broken Social Scene
27. Panda Bear Person Pitch
28. Ted Leo and The Pharmacists Heart of Oak
29. Band of Horses Everything All The Time
30. Deerhunter Microcastle
31. Boredoms Vision Creation Newsun
32. Kanye West The College Dropout
33. Burial Untrue
34. Common Like Water for Chocolate
35. Muse Absolution
36. Grizzly Bear Veckatimest
37. TV On The Radio Return to Cookie Mountain
38. Ghostface Killah Fishcale
39. Joanna Newsom The Milk-Eyed Mender
40. Jay-Z The Blueprint
41. Jamie Lidell Jim
42. Basement Jaxx Rooty
43. Lupe Fiasco The Cool
44. M.I.A. Kala
45. The National Alligator
46. Radiohead - In Rainbows
47. The New Pornographers Twin Cinema
48. The Shins Chutes Too Narrow
49. Radiohead Hail to the Thief
50. Spoon Kill The Moonlight
51. Dizzee Rascal Boy in Da Corner
52. Liars Drums Not Dead
53. Spoon Girls Can Tell
54. The White Stripes White Blood Cells
55. The Strokes Is This It
56. The Rapture- Echoes
57. Joanna Newsom Ys
58. The Flaming Lips At War with the Mystics
59. Missy Elliott Miss E So Addictive
60. Battles Mirrored
61. Animal Collective Strawberry Jam
62. The Field From Here We Go Sublime
63.Phoenix Its Never Been Like That
64.Interpol Turn On The Bright Lights
65. The Streets Original Pirate Material
66. Brian Wilson Smile
67. No Age Nouns
68. M.I.A. Arular
69. TV On The Radio Dear Science
70. Aesop Rock Labor Days
71. The Weakerthans Left and Leaving
72. Sonic Youth Murray Street
73. The Shins Oh, Inverted World
74. Robyn Robyn
75. Radiohead Amnesiac
76. Grizzly Bear Yellow House
77. Why? Alopecia
78. Basement Jaxx Kish Kash
79. Of Montreal Hissing Fauna, Are You the Destroyer?
80. Wolf Parade Apologies to Queen Mary
81. The Thermals The Body, The Blood, The Machine
82. The National Boxer
83. The Books The Lemon of Pink
84. Jamie Lidell Multiply
85. Devendra Banhart Rejoicing in Hands
86. Common Be
87. Fugazi The Argument
88. Okkervil River Black Sheep Boy
89. The Decemberists Picaresque
90. The Hold Steady Boys and Girls in America
91. Mos Def The Ecstatic
92. Morrissey You are The Quarry
93 Jay-Z The Black Album
94, Antony and the Johnsons I Am a Bird Now
95 Jimmy Eat World Futures
96. DJ/Rupture Uproot
97. Belle and Sebastian The Life Pursuit
98. Cut Copy In Ghost Colours
99. LCD Soundsystem LCD Soundsystem
100. Hot Hot Heat Make Up For the Breakdown
When people talk about influential hip-hop of the 80's I feel like De La Soul get forgotten a lot. I obviously find this unfair, especially with this being one of my favorite albums of all time. Run-D.M.C., Public Enemy, Beastie Boys, N.W.A. and Eric B. & Rakim all get a lot of credit for their influence on hip-hop, and rightfully so, those first four have also released some of my favorites, and EB.&R are a fantastic (though not a favorite) and undeniably talented and influential act. De La Soul's 3 Feet High and Rising is a laid back album that demands to be listened to over and over. It's catchy, intelligent, and unforgettable, right down to it's absurdly happy album cover.
It stylistically influenced more popular (and arguably better) act, A Tribe Called Quest, who were one of the best groups of the 90's, and that is enough to make De La Soul an important fixture in music in general.
This is probably top 5 in my favorite hip-hop albums of all time, and because I said this, I will probably be posting my top 30 (or something) favorite hip-hop albums of all time. Look out for that I guess.
I know, it's surprising, but I'm actually going to stop my bitching about life etc, to talk about music. It might take some getting used to for my dear readers, but I think you can handle it.
"Don't Forget About"? What the hell are you talking about, Brad?
Well, I'm going to be talking about what I consider to be some of the best albums of all time. They are going to be mentioned in no order, and I'm sure some that I consider to be of the highest quality will be passed over by me for simple lack of descriptive words.
Anyway, this first installment is in honor of The Stone Roses wonderful eponymous debut album, which was recently remastered. P4K slammed a 10.0 on it and NME called it the best British album of all time. It's stunning creativity is pretty simply evident. Combining an obscure dance sound with intelligent late 80's indie rock, the album really doesn't have any competitors as far as style goes. There isn't a whole lot to legitimately compare it against as fair as dance driven indie rock albums go. Everything about this album is iconic, from it's blaring bass (which by the way, sounds fantastic on the remaster), it's instantly memorable (without being cheesy) lyrics, or it's impressively simple album art, it's an album that you won't ever want to forget about.
And for fucks sake, pick it up if you don't already have it. No better time than now.
If anyone has paid any attention to my blog (by the way, does anyone pay any attention to my blog?), they know that the end of the summer was rough as hell for me. The beginning of the school year, while better, has not been great either. Naturally, the music I listen to has turned as well. But there seems to be a stark contradiction between the feel of these albums.
The Antlers vs. fun.
Ted Leo and The Pharmacists vs. Sunny Day Real Estate
Maybe it's me grasping onto whatever positivity I can find, or maybe it's just me trying to hard. But what I've noticed is the happier albums don't make me feel happier, I certainly enjoy listening to them, but differently. For example fun.'s "At Least I'm not as Sad". As opposed to listening to that song with the air of hopefulness I should, I just listen to it with a cruel sense of irony. I feel spiteful, and I don't like it.
IF I had a dollar for every time somebody told me this in the past week or so, I'd probably be able to buy two or three CD's. Unfortunately, all I have is a bunch of people giving me the same tired advice that, for whatever reason, I can not physically follow. Yes, I've been through a ton of shit this summer, with a couple different girls, all ending in me being crushed (though on different levels), one of the girls, who must be extremely talented, was able to do it twice. I generally respond to receiving advice like this with some sort of witty or sarcastic remark that probably goes further in showing my insecurities than it does in hiding them.
Don't dwell on the negative, look at the positives. Issue is, the negatives are such monstrosities compared to the minuscule, minor relevance of the positives. I'll actually probably do a T-Chart or something in this blog later laying out the positives and negatives.
I'm tired of listening to fun.'s "At Least I'm Not As Sad (As I Used To Be)" with a terrible sense of irony
I'm tired of listening to Jimmy Eat World's "Work" with an increasingly terrifying knowledge of how right they are
I'm tired of listening to girls tell me that we're better off as friends
I'm tired of pretending that everything is okay
I'm tired of acting like what happened didn't fucking kill me
I'm tired of making an effort to be optimistic
I'm tired of people telling me that good things will come
I'm just fucking tired of this bullshit.
I keep hearing, "such is life", but fuck it.
The Get Up Kids, Lifetime, Sunny Day Real Estate, Joy Division, The Format and The Smiths aren't even going to dig me out of this hole.
"Of the three people I wanted to keep in touch with after the summer, you are officially the last one standing"
I sent that text message tonight, and despite the slightly comical tone to it, it was in all seriousness. It's probably my fault that the other two people (all three were girls, probably relevant) and I are more than likely never going to talk again. I dated one for about two weeks, and before anything got really "official", she broke it off. It wasn't that she broke it off, much more the manner in which she did so, that ruined any possibilities of friendship. But more than that, she expected us to be best friends like we were before right away. She even started telling about some new guy. That was enough for me.
The second girl is the one mentioned in my earlier blog posts. On the last day that she worked (which was two days before camp actually ended), I sent her a long, overdrawn, sappy text message that basically detailed that despite what happened, I wanted to be friends. She, in much shorter form, said that she did too. We talked a couple of times after camp, and she ignored my text messages twice (on Tuesday and Wednesday). I had certainly kept wishful thinking, and was hoping that she either didn't get them or her phone was broken or something of the like. It wasn't, she got them. Apparently we're not friends. Guess I didn't get the memo.
A lot of shit has gone down in the past 4 days, and pretty much all of it has crushed me. I have not been remotely happy since Thursday, and it really isn't looking up. However, I grabbed myself an hour of true happiness today when I got to go to Amoeba Records in SanFran. It might sound stupid or trivial, but flipping through those albums is the only time I've been truly happy in the past 4 days. Here's what I picked up, I'm getting my paycheck for the entire summer soon ($800), so I spent pretty much all of my cash ($135)
DJ/Rupture - Uproot Beirut - The Flying Club Cup Spiritualized - Ladies and Gentlemen We are Floating in Space Boards of Canada -Music Has the Right to Children Ted Leo and The Pharmacists- The Tyranny of Distance Guided By Voices - Bee Thousand The Unicorns - Who Will Cut Our Hair When We're Gone? The Books - Lemon of Pink Woods - Songs of Shame The Microphones - The Glow pt. 2 Lindstrom - Where You Go I Go Too
This summer I worked at a day camp, 8 weeks of my life were spent making other people happy. Sure, opportunities arose here and there, I had spurts of happiness, but they always, always, ended horribly. Never once worked out in my favor. So I kept moving on. I made friends, lost friends, and got pretty close to people I'll probably never see again. The ending of the session couldn't possibly be more bitter sweet. Bitter in the fact that I will maybe never see some of those kids or staff members again, some of whom I really liked. Sweet because to be honest, I hated my job, and to be even more honest, I hated a lot of the kids and staff there also. I'll miss some people, a lot of people, and thats the part thats killing me.
It's been a horrible summer, it's been a great summer. I'm glad that it's over. I wish it would never end.
"I love love, I love being in love, I don't care what it does to me"
I'm sure this has a lot to do with the fun. album coming out soon, and my (so far) successful effort to not download the leak, but I've been listening to a lot of The Format lately. This band knew their way around a pop song better than most others out there. How they didn't take over the goddamn world I do not know. They combined a huge level of catchiness and accessibility with a surprisingly high level of challenging moments that require effort on the listeners end.
Those challenging moments show themselves most notable in the first two tracks of Dog Problems. Often overshadowed by the outright poppiness of the third track ("Time Bomb"), "Matches" and "I'm Actual" are both risky tracks. Neither of them are what the band did best and neither really utilizes the bands best talents, but both of them, with a close listen, are stellar in their own rights.
I think that really shows how great they were. They always knew the right amount of the ingredients to put in. They never put an overbearing amount of challenging moments, but kept enough to raise themselves above the rest.
Or maybe I'm just crazy. I've (no joke) been writing this blog entry for about 2 weeks. The wording was never right, probably still isn't. Oh well, at least I tried.