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keep me..
09/10/12 at 07:53 PM by fallen glory
i’m a stranger..a stranger in love with a soul i haven’t met yet..i’m longing to be wrapped up in arms that haven’t been found yet,i’m head over heels for a mystery,i’m butchering my fucking heart over some face in a crowd among crows,i’m missing my better half when there is no better half to miss.I’m floating on missing out on somebody that iv’e never seen,and it’s tearing me apart…this lack of affection and serenity is killing me,my mind is fracturing,my heart is slowly turning to dust,these blades can’t keep me company,because i’m just not here anymore..
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07/05/12 at 08:51 PM by fallen glory
i'm not happy with life.
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07/04/12 at 07:29 PM by fallen glory
i hate this fucking holiday...i have been alone on it for like the past 3 fucking years.
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time slips away
07/04/12 at 02:06 AM by fallen glory
Laying beneath the tree they used to share she remembered all the time she spent with him.All the nights,afternoons,the happiness,the fights…the life they spent under the stars,just children of a tainted world but yet held captive by it’s beauty. She would lay in his arms all night and just admire him,the way he would smile,the way he would chuckle at all the small twinkles and gleams in the sky. Turning her thoughts to rainier days she could remember the anger he always carried with him like a storm,anger at his father,anger at his mother,anger at love,and the unforgiving coldness of abandonment.But she was always at there at his side,she could always see the anger in his heart fade under the stars as she would stroke his temple with her hand and he would always gaze at her and wrap his arms warmly around her,loving,happy,real. He always led her to real and exciting places and events,how they would get into such trouble and he would always laugh and tell her “time slips away every moment,why waste any bit of it not running through life without the right person?” However..she knew,all good things would end sooner or later.they had a falling out one day under the very tree they shared so many fond memories under.”i’m sorry..but i have to let go now..”he had told her”what?….why?!”“i just want you to know that i love you…and…that no matter what happens it was beyond our control…i love you..i love you….i love you so.” “so you leave?just like that?,all the fighting and the laughing and the fucking love we have is just gone and dead to you?!…GO..i..I HATE YOU!”she could tell that she did the damage she wanted to as she saw the hurt in his eyes..and in a split second he was gone as fast as he had come into her life,the wind rustled her hair as she watched him go into the wheat and on back home. For a long time she hadn’t heard from him and she couldn’t force herself to date again because she loved him so much..but part of her still hated him for him leaving.She tried calling him,texting him,even writing him letters..but what she didn’t know was that he had been in the hospital during the long months they had been away from each other. She received a call early spring from one of his best friends informing her on everything and how he spoke of her and his best friend couldn’t resist telling her just to see a smile on his friends face.When she showed up at the hospital door,she opened it to find him there…and he looked as if he were frail and in he was pale and his lips were chapped and faded but when she looked into his eyes a warmth rekindled 2 young hearts that morning.She sat down and talked to him about all she had done since they last talked,about her starting college and also selling some of her art.Then he told her what happened. “that night when we..broke up it was because i found out that i have cancer,the doctors told me i was going to die and…well i didn’t want you to grief over me..your heart and smile are too beautiful to be shattered by something so morbid.” when he saw the concern in her face and the tears slowly following he pulled in with “but it’s ok! they tell me i should be ok to get out in a couple days haha then maybe we can catch up?” to which she calmly and warmly replied “i think i would love that very much….so so much.” she smiled at him and did what she had wanted to since she had watched him go that night so long ago under the stars.
she kissed him
the next day she drove out to the tree and snapped a quick picture to show him that morning.”Hey there lovely!” was his first words to her that afternoon when she stepped into his room and kissed his forehead sweetly.”I’m not that lovely am i?” she said with a shy giggle.”well i would have to be one crazy bastard to not think so!” he replied with a smile.He then did something she didn’t expect:he stood upright. When she laid her eyes on him he looked strong as she had last seen him and he looked amazing and wonderful and handsome and every good thing she could think of and she could think of nothing else but to go and hug him.When they left the hospital later in the afternoon they went to the tree and watched the wheat field and the ocean in the distance and laughed and talked about the world and he spoke of his mother and being left alone with the doctor bills and having to beg his brothers up north to help him pay the bills off.”i really think i might make it aha….i really do..” she watched a tear fall from his face and down onto the dirt before the great oak.”i have no doubt that you will sweetheart…when..when you are finally out of the hospital would you..would you like to maybe come stay with me awhile?we can come here as often as you like.”she said this quickly as if shy and scared that he would say no.”well..i think i would absolutely love that.”he smiled with a light warmer than any she had known as he said this.As the sun went down they packed up and headed for the hospital and he kissed her goodbye slowly but surely and whispered in her ear: “thank you for being here for me when nobody else would…i fear for those who don’t have the love and support that you put forth for myself..” she took his face in her hands and looked him in the eyes.”you will always have my love understand?always…always and forever.” “always and forever.” he replied
the next afternoon she sat at the grand oak with a picturebook of the two of them and flipped the pages and tears streamed from her face as she held a bloodied blade..she had knicked the veins in her wrists not too long ago.. Earlier that morning when she had gone to visit him and take him with her she had arrived to find him gone.
the doctors told her he had died over night.
ok.since this is easily my saddest and maybe most well thought out story i have done in a very long time i would love to know thoughts on it they would be most appreciated and this is a sad ending yes,however if anybody wants a happy one then i would be more than happy to edit and give them an alternate version.
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06/26/12 at 01:09 PM by fallen glory
i have been single for months now and i still don't regret it,i have found that love is painfully boring as fuck,the holding hands,cuddling,hugging,kissing,fuck ing (which feels great),it's all so dull and just lame and boring...i don't see it as i once might have.
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06/11/12 at 08:34 PM by fallen glory
i'm in florida,it's beautiful,my mom is getting married,disney world. i have said all that must be said :)
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chelsea grin:lilith
05/09/12 at 05:09 PM by fallen glory

i'm in love with their latest song <3
Tags: music
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this war is hidden
04/25/12 at 10:20 PM by fallen glory
I am a guy of muscle and bone,want and needs,ambitions and plans,hopes and sometimes dreams.
I get alot of strange looks and more often than not people choose to ignore me.Days go by where you are the only one who shows me any affection...but i'm so stressed all the time,i just need something to make problems disappear.I never meant to be so cold,i want to say sorry,i want to beg you to believe in me,i want my promises to mean something,i want my words to be true....alas...this is not the case.
You are willing to believe whatever your mind cooks up about me....when really none of it's true...so sometime i feel like i'm nothing more but dust beneathe you..i feel though that if you could just know me for who i really am and could see the world i do sometimes...maybe you could understand :/....sometimes i try hard to express my feelings to you but i don't know how without being so angry,i wish you could understand...i wish i could help...i want to feel like i have something to offer...without feeling like every other guy is just so much better...but it's hard when you're feeling scarred...it's hard when you feel like you have no hope,it's hard when i just can't see me being all that great,i guess if i could stop living with me i would....because i don't like me either..
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feeling pretty lifeless.
03/18/12 at 03:00 AM by fallen glory
sitting in this room i can't help but notice that i have realized that i have no plans for myself...it makes me angry..but that anger slowly fades into a slow regret.I believe that this life i carry within my breast is one that is dwindling....i know i am quite young..but it would appear that my youth is going to waste..regrettably i don't know what to do about it......
Tags: life, sleep deprived, mythoughts
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my my my
01/05/12 at 08:20 PM by fallen glory
well would you look at the time...lately i have been rather trapped inside myself,not really able to do anything about the things happening around me, all my friends are gone,love isn't an option,i have no family here...i think i will move to florida in a few years..
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time up
12/31/11 at 03:09 PM by fallen glory
well.....i'm alone again...so far i'm taking it with a grain of salt and kind of just trying to relax,still sucks though buuuuuut oh well i guess :|
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12/30/11 at 12:59 PM by fallen glory
there's a crack in the window where you can see a dark figure outside
i lifeless world where i thought all my dreams had died
i know you can't tell that i'm looking for hope
these dreams,these lights,i think i lost my home...
i'm lost but here,in a place so profound
but i'm still here screaming...the back of my head on the ground
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12/30/11 at 12:59 PM by fallen glory
there's a crack in the window where you can see a dark figure outside
i lifeless world where i thought all my dreams had died
i know you can't tell that i'm looking for hope
these dreams,these lights,i think i lost my home...
i'm lost but here,in a place so profound
but i'm still here screaming...the back of my head on the ground
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12/25/11 at 04:27 PM by fallen glory
i came home from work last night to find my lil hamster dead.......i miss him so much.....i just want him back....
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finding my center.
12/13/11 at 12:54 AM by fallen glory
i recently came across some vids on youtube that inspired me to pick up the sticks and start playing drums again.i started learning immaculate misconception by motionless in white and so far i think i am sounding great and cannot wait to get back to it tomorrow and fucking do even better.
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