So, after a while of thinking about the girls in my life, I've come to the realization that she sticks out to me. Maybe its her ability to make me laugh, or to just be herself. At times I feel like I put up a bad front to her at times (with smoking) and that she judges me on it. Honestly, she's the only girl I feel bad that I actually smoke. Or it could be her entire outlook on life, and just lives it up each day with a smile on her face.
Whatever the reason is, its making me attracted to her, and to be honest, its been a while since I've had feelings for anyone. But I think that I am starting to like her.
Liar, you never called. But I'll be just fine, yeah I'm fine, sleep well. This never made much sense to me so I sleep alone. Cause you are the same as I always remembered, I'll always remember. Where was all your money. You said, where is all your money. You like it more than ever, and I can not stand this. Because you like it more than ever. It was just a god damn mistake. Stay at home, because you're way to good at faking. Love is too much, I'll be just fine here. Stay at home, because it's always the same. Darling you fucked up. I guess I love to spend all my time up in my own brain. Because I can believe the words coming up out of your face. I guess they all knew. Somebody draw the sun. Those states made me distant. Tell me it's always, better. Well I can't believe you're still in the valley, wasting away. I guess they got the best of me, and got your all. But I'll be just fine here.
All I see.
You will never waste my time. No, you will never waste my time. Well she locks all the doors and turns, says we will always be safe here in this bed. Becuase all I see scares me, and no one waits forever. So come closer baby, I want to see what you're made of. Cause this isn't all we could be. You're not the same and I'm not the same and... No one could ever wait for you. No one, yeah no one could ever wait for you, I'll wait for you love. But you are the never ending sleep that I love to treat, with this medicine I get from my closer friends. But all I see...
Had this album for almost a week, and I've listened to it close to 25 times. It's been pretty much the only thing I've listened to all this week. It's been a while since an album has had this type of impact on me. I love everything about this album, the mood it sets, its lyrics, simple yes but they get the point across, Leighton's and Mindy's vocals, and the music in itself. It's gonna be hard for something else to knock this album out of my #1 spot for album of the year.
If I had to give this album, a grade/score, I'd give it 9.2/10, only because I feel the album is too short, I want more.
Its just I can't seem to fall asleep these days. And you can't seem to stop digging this grave. Because you we're only eighteen at the time, and I was holding up these streets just fine. Place me on the scene and I'll fake everything that you ever said to me. No, it wasn't just words. Day after day after day, I call that fate. Darling I've been thinking about you. And you were thinking, how much fun it was filling up our lungs. But don't you just see what's happened, yeah we never stay lonely. I can't bare to see you staring at the ceiling, you wait to, just wait to dream.
Live it up, live it up, or just come back home. These city lights are too much for you alone. But San Francisco sounds quite lovely. So I'll just wait for your call, I promise I'm holy, lonely. So stay awake and I'll stay. I try and go but your game, it waits for me and you love. So cover up for the rain. You see in way too much safety. Because I don't stand a chance, any longer than you do my friend. But we sure know best now that you're gone. I can't breath with these words on my tongue. But San Francisco still sounds lovely, and he swears he still loves you. He called, lonely. So stay awake and I'll stay. I try and go but your game, it waits for me and you love. So cover up for the rain. You see in way too much safety. Because I don't stand a chance, any longer than you do my friend. But you're still keeping me sane. Its still in the way that I think. Nobody is watching me.
I guess in the end, you start to think about how things were in the beginning. It's weird to realize that I think about so much stuff at night. I think about the past relationships I've had, and possible relationships in the future. I believe I'm stressing so much over trying to find someone, that I should just let it come naturally and unexpectedly. The girl will come along, I just can't keep worrying about when that initial day will come.
Tomorrow is going to be a fun filled packed day, filled with 2 tests and a quiz. Can you sense the sarcasm in my tone? I hope so, cause tomorrow is the only thing holding me back from Spring Break. I cannot wait to go home and just relax and not be stressed over school.