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Take This To Your [Headphones]
|"So I guess this is growing up" Take VI
|I'm staring at my bank account and trying to calculate my future.|
Today my mom picked me up from work. I stepped into the car to see that she was in hysterics.
She claims she screwed up my deferment for my student loans because she's been so busy pretty much taking care of every other aspect of her life and our family. She just messed it all up.
My loans are about $20,000 and it might be time for me to start paying them. The loans are an amount because I basically took out every possible loan be able to attend college. This money doesn't even include the other loan I was paying off myself, which was about $1600. Right now if I put away $200 a month, it would take me about 8 years to pay it off. I'll be 35 years old.
I am falling into insanity at this point.
I'm trying not to panic. Not to cry.
This entire night has sent me on a search to see what other bills need to be paid.
I found the cable bill and the utilities bill. I'm setting up a place for them in my bank account so I can submit a bit of money each month to help my parents out.
I made a promise to myself to really pay my bills on time and to save money. I want a laptop and a new phone. I don't even know how any of this is possible anymore. Most of my money has to go to loans at this point. I'll see the money go, but barely any of it saved.
I'm saddened. I can't even say it enough.
I guess this is why people bet and they gamble. Why they go crazy.
Am I too young for this or is this normal?
|Tags: bills, money, personal, life,