Sitting here in Poly Sci class reading the comments and loving them. I'm trying to study for my midterm that will be administered at the end of class but I just had to write something before I got back to the important stuff in my life (you know, like PASSING my classes so I can transfer).
I've surpassed 200 comments and 20,000 views, quite an accomplishment considering that just over a month ago I was at 100 comments and 10,000 views. I'm climbing the AP boards, and it is all due to this story I'm writing.
One of the reasons I've been so open about this situation is because I'm trying to learn how to handle both positive and negative comments. If I ever want to be a writer or in any kind of public, leadership position, I need to be able to handle negativity and dissent. Anyone can embrace positivity and praise, I love the anger and passion that my story is encouraging. This means that people are emotionally connecting to the story, one way or another. Few of you actually know any of the people involved, but your concerns for them are that of people who are close friends.
Just know, negativity isn't going to affect me. If I was vulnerable to the thoughts of people I didn't know, I obviously wouldn't be posting this story for the public to read.
Anyway, I might get Ch. 6 out today, but I have a lot of stuff going on. Let me just remind you all that we aren't even halfway there.
So I notice that Ch. 5 didn't sit well with many people. That's fine. I never came out and said that I was a saint and didn't make any mistakes in this situation. I think that the people who take this story and play me out to be an asshole are entitled to think that based on what they've read so far.
I know what was in my heart and my mind and I'm writing it all out. I'm being completely honest about it because I want the story to be true and real. I could easily play myself out to have handled the situation perfectly, but I didn't. I'm human.
I will continue to write the story, for whoever wants to read. It's what I do and I don't care who likes me or who thinks I'm an asshole. I'm just posting it to entertain, honestly.
Just remember, that some of the greatest love stories come at the expense of others. The Notebook? Didn't she cheat on her fiance to be with the guy? Romeo and Juliet? She was supposed to marry someone else. People have conflicts with love all the time. You think you feel a certain way and then something or someone comes along and changes that perception.
You will see, if you continue reading, that I do feel conflicted and try to do the right thing. But I don't need to do that. You are all entitled to what you feel, I just hope you see the story through.
For the first time, I started recording and just talked. I didn't plan out anything or write it down, I just said what was on my mind. If you are interested in seeing what I had to say, here is the video:
I'll blog more later, I'm at work now and I have to get a lot of stuff done. I just wanted to get this up so people can start watching it. I'm a guy who likes peace and doesn't like negativity, that's all there really is to it.
Also, the new Copeland may be in my top 5 for albums coming out this year. It's that good. I can't stop listening to it and this album hit me more immediately than pretty much any album this year. More thoughts later.