You just keep asking me what's wrong. As if I could ever have a problem being alone with you. Everything else in the world doesn't matter when I have you all to myself.
When I came out with the truth of how I felt about your situation, I held back my personal feelings. That was the mature thing to do, I didn't want to make things about me. But now, I wish I could go back to that moment, repeat every word the way I did but finish off with what my heart's telling me to tell you. Fuck maturity, how am I supposed to know something was a mistake unless I do it?
But at the same time, I'm glad I didn't. I want to tell you in my own time, in my own way.
Everything you do, every word you say, you just leave me second guessing everything. I begin to wonder how I would fit into your life. And I begin to drift off...
Only coming back to reality when you ask me what's wrong again.
"There's nothing wrong. Everything's gonna be alright."
Disclaimer: 2010 was a great year for music and I was overwhelmed by how much music I still hadn't heard last week. This is based off of the albums I have listened to so you can assume that it is subject to change. That is all.
1. Circa Survive - Blue Sky Noise
2. Steel Train - S/T
3. Vampire Weekend - Contra
4. Motion City Soundtrack - My Dinosaur Life
5. Fair - Disappearing World
6. Underoath - O Slash (Disambiguation)
7. Spoon - Transference
8. The Wonder Years - The Upsides
9. Sufjan Stevens - The Age of Adz
10. Drake - Thank Me Later
11. Hellogoodbye -Would It Kill You?
Honorable Mentions/Albums I Just Got Into
The Narrative - S/T
The Republic of Wolves- Varuna
Metric - Fantasies
Crystal Castles - II
Anberlin - Dark is the Way, Light is a Place
House of Heroes - Suburba
The Graduate - Only Every Time
Albums I've been meaning to listen to:
Kanye West -My Beautiful Dark Twisted Fantasy
Arcade Fire - Suburbs
Toy Story 3
Scott Pilgrim vs The World
It feels like it was just a couple of weeks ago, that I wrote that one blog entry about my birthday, and here we are again! I don't quite understand how a year goes by so fast. Nothing ever slows down for me. I feel so old now. But I remember hearing someone tell someone else "remember when we thought 20 was old?" and I felt some relief.
Maybe it's because I've been watching too much How I Met Your Mother. Ted's life just flew by him and he just wants to settle down now. Maybe I'm putting too much pressure on myself by not letting these years just fly by. I don't know what it is. I'm just freakin' paranoid like that, I guess. Either way, I just want to live every second of my life doing something. That way I can look back and have actual things to reflect on.
I need to get out of this town, do something, and stick with it. I'm done just sitting around and watching time pass me by. Time to work on these next ten years.