||01/01/13 06:03 PM
I need a little bit of help..if you don't mind reading (kinda lengthy)
I will start of by introducing the people I will talking about
Jessica: my ex-girlfriend, terrible terrible relationship. too much pain, worry, just, ugh. I cannot believe I lasted as long as I did.
Michelle: my ex-girlfriend's ex. a really good friend of mine. she has helped me a whole lot recently, no feelings involved with her, as she has a boyfriend. and, because I just don't see her that way.
Jessica and I finally parted ways on Christmas day, it relieved me so much, it had felt like a giant burden had been lifted. I don't know, it was a good feeling. Michelle talked to me through it all, and it is mainly the reason I haven't had a meltdown since then. Michelle and I have been talking non-stop since Christmas Eve. Now some of the conversations between me and Michelle have included how she is upset/pissed off that Jessica put me through all that she did, and that she didn't want me talking to her anymore. Wellll, last night (New Year's) I called Jessica, on FaceTime. I knew I shouldn't have, but I did. It was nice talking to her again, getting to see her and hear her voice. I fell asleep feeling alright.
I messaged Michelle today and told her what I did, because Jessica told me that she was going to tell her. So I decided to tell her myself so things didn't look bad.
I now feel like I have betrayed Michelle by talking to Jessica last night when she has told me not to.. and now Michelle doesn't seem interested to talk to me anymore, as if she is upset at me. She claims she isn't, but I have a hard time believing that..
Jessica and I haven't spoken at all since Christmas, except for that call last night. We don't plan on talking either.
What do you think?
Should I be worrying as much as I should? or not?
I don't have many good friends, not anyone like Michelle, so her being upset at me is not a good thing at all.. :/ it is killing me on the inside..