I wrote this one about a past relationship that's recently been heavy on my mind. I'd started thinking about it more and more, to the point it was practically unbearable. I didn't get any sense of closure from that relationship. It ended rather abruptly when *insert name here* moved away. We never even attempted contacting each other after that. It was a relationship that I'd put a lot into, and up until she moved away, gotten a lot out of. And then it ended abruptly. I've been writing about it quite a bit, recently. Writing about it and thinking about it. I realized that I started thinking about it for a fairly unhealthy amount of time out of pretty much every day. I needed to get over it. So that's why I wrote this. True story. Now I'm over it and moving on, because I don't want to drive myself crazy over something to insignificant, something that I can't really do anything about, and something that shouldn't have mattered to me this far down the line.
Closure
When I’d close my eyes
Your scent would lie heavy on my mind
As if I’d find
Myself lost inside the barriers of myself
That would run through
Every thought I’d had that related to you
I skimmed through
I went back, I read them again
Those letters that you use to send
Now I’ll never have to see them again
The more and more that I’d thought about it
The more I realized I needed to quit
Unhealthy habits carry me, they carry you
It was at that point that I knew
I needed some form of closure
I needed to say goodbye
To lift the weight of you off of my shoulders
To end these minute frustrations
To free myself, to be myself
And to say my last goodbyes