[punkcrap]

This must be a really awful situation, but don't give up. Go see a doctor and start getting your life back on track. I'm sure you're not alone, so start accepting help from friends/family, even if the only thing they can do is share some moments of conversation with you. Face this as a new era in your life, where all the bad shit is starting to belong in a dark, distant past. Now it's time for you to start from scratch. And I know it's a lot easier for me to write this, and reality is tough and ugly, but there isn't another way. Your only choice is to stand tall and face every challenge ahead of you.