i hate to say it, but i do. i wish he would. i've still talked to him here and there - we're in the same university - and we tried to hang out a couple times, because he's supposedly still interested in being friends, but... i really wish he could change, and actually be committed to a relationship. i can't help but count on that happening someday. and if i don't count on that, i wonder whether i could find such a connection with anyone else ever again.
Yeah i understand. I know that it's not going to happen and that i need to stop thinking that it will, but for some reason, everytime flowers got delivered today at work i thought "what if they're from him, telling me how sorry he is, and how he doesnt want to not have me in his life?"