Sorry for the late response...but yeah, i honestly didn't like the EP at first and even after i still feel like the songs are just okayOH MY GOD. Why weren't you in the Farewell chat It was really cool. They answered a lot of my questions, they're so nice. Yaaay i saw that will quoted you and was really excited haha! I seriously can't wait for Cycles.

That's awesome! I just started my first week back and it's okay, i guess. A lot of work, you know?
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Why wouldn't I want to talk to you? =/ I just was at work when you commented me, I'm sorry, love.
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No problem Yaaay. So far....I do enjoy it. Still can't tell if i like it more than the first record. I hope you like it! Indeed I did see the tracklisting. Sooo glad that it still remains and perfect mistake are on it. Hopefully the others are great.

Nope, that's you! Awwh, I actually could say the same thing about you too Hope everything in your life is going as great as of a person you are.

One love (Will constantly says this ahaha)

Psshh i told you i would! haha. I'm actually going to listen to it riiight now, so later!

p.s. you're the bestest!

http://www.mediafire.com/?nyj0ynegmzm

hopefully it works for you cause it gave me some problems but now it works haha!

Ah well it did sound a little sad to me haha. Some of my friends are helping me clear out my room so I can repaint it, so at the moment I'm just chucking paint around haphazardly. It makes me glad to hear you happy too, it makes me happy. Yeah I'm so thankful for so many of my friends, including you. I rely so much on you all.

That really doesn't make you sound like a sap, that makes you sound like you'll be a great partner to any girl. That's all I would ask for in a relationship and it's a great thing that you would do those things for someone. Oh right, I figured your main holiday would be around summer your time. I only have a winter break then, two weeks. Aw well thank you, I respect the way you manage to juggle so many commitments and put your best into everything you do.

First I'll apologise because this will probably end up really long, but I just want to say everything. I haven't got lyrics, but just because I see a lot of parallels I'll explain what happened to me first so I can respond properly to your situation, so that you know where I'm coming from. This happened last year and like you, the person was someone I believe out of my league. His name was Jared, typical football player, handsome, intelligent etc. To be honest, I was amazed that he wanted to be seen with me let alone go out with me. The first months were great and I fell for him so quickly and I started letting other things become less important. School became less important, so did spending time with my family. It became very dangerous very soon, like I began to mould everything I did around him. I started caring about my weight too much (like I told you before, I think, and how I lost more weight than I was comfortable with) and Amanda, who was again there for me, showed me what everything he had spiralled into. At that point I was angry, thinking that something had gone right in my life and people were trying to begrudge me happiness. Then, I guess similar to Georgie slightly, he started going out with his friends more and more often. It started out with the odd drink, which I wouldn't critisize, and next thing I know I'm getting phone calls in the middle of the night, while he's drunk, asking for a ride. And I mean, consistently, every night without fail. Then he began to ask to help him catch up in class or help him with homework he'd missed, because I was his girlfriend. Everything just spiralled and I felt like he was dragging me down with him. I just remember one day, sitting with my family and some friends at dinner, "what am I doing?" I tried to be there for him as much as I could, but no matter how much I loved him, I couldn't make him change, and that hurt for a long time. It destroyed my self-confidence to a large degree, through going out with him and hearing daily "what is he doing with her?" But none of that mattered at the time, because I had Jared. At the time I thought that was enough.

Sorry about the long-winded explanation, but firstly, I really wanted to share that with you, and I thought it would help you better understand where I come from in regards to relationships etc. I'm so incredibly sorry, Broden, that you had to go through that kind of relationship. I can sympathise with a lot of it, like I said above. It's very hard to be in a destructive relationship. I don't think it's silly to say you felt she was your one and only, I think it's amazing that you treasured her so much. I'm not going to criticise her because at some point you loved her and I respect that. Even though the love has faded, I dislike it when my friends critisize him, because I loved him once, y'know? Maybe it's just me. I'm very sorry for what happened to her though. I've seen so many people ruined by drink and drugs etc., one of the reasons I'm reluctant to ever become involved in that type of thing. I think, essentially, as sad as it sounds, sometimes love is not enough. It took me a long time to come to accept it, but sometimes love can only help someone so much and it can't always save everyone. People have to work though problems and resolve them by themselves to reach true closure, and as frustrating as it is and as guilty as it makes you feel, I don't think you could have done anything more for her Broden. I know you tried so hard to help her and I'm sure she'll come to realise how much you cared for her, eventually. I'm so sorry that you went through that kind of hurt and abuse from her mother, I think you were hurting more than they realised and you didn't deserve that extra pain of people blaming you. I feel so bad that you seem to still have guilt over the situation, and in my opinion you were in a very difficult situation and given the circumstances, I think you did the best that you could and not gutless at all. Walking away is sometimes the hardest thing to do and often the best thing you can do to help someone. I hope you can forgive yourself Broden. I'm sorry if this is too personal, but have you moved on? Do you still see her around? I'd just hate to think you were still hurting all this time. I think the lyrics are a brilliant summation of your relationship, thank you for sharing that with me.

Well that was incredibly long so I apologise, but I really feel I know you better Broden and that is great thing. I'll speak to you soon!

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Broden! Sorry about the little delay, I've been redecorating, which I'm strangely excited about haha. I keep finding all this old stuff I'd forgotten that I had and it's really fun (in a sad kind of way). You're one of my best friends too, of course! I love reading your comments and now you've got a Federer avatar I can look at that and smile as well! Haha. Honestly Broden, I would not be offended whatever you asked me because I know you'd ask it for a good reason. But he's fine now, which is good news, thank you for thinking of us, I appreciate it. I would love very much to read the song about your relationship. I realise it must be a very personal thing so thank you so much for trusting me enough to let me read it. You can just paste it in the middle or end of the comment if you'd like? It would be nice to have a different perspective from a friend about that kind of thing.

My friends have eased up a bit I think. One of my best friends, Amanda, I think has explained to them why I get bothered when they pressure me. She said she didn't want to interfere but she didn't like seeing my upset, which I'm very grateful for. Honestly, it's not so much the person that I miss, but he was a good friend before that. He got caught up in things I wasn't comfortable with and suffice it is to say it just wasn't working. It's not something I think on too often though, I just don't think I could comfortable go into another relationship, and at this point I don't think I need to anyway. I've got great friends anyway, so all is well! Hey that's way too negative Broden! Although I'm guilty of thinking that way sometimes. I think you're such a good friend Broden, and I'm sure an amazing boyfriend to whatever girl you end up with.

Well I'm glad you're all finished up with exams at the moment. I just realised how different the Australian terms are! Is your main holiday from December to January? Haha complain all you want, I know I did when I had my exams. I missed you too Broden! I'll get back quicker next time, I promise!




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Hi, hun! Coming to training tonight? You should pick me uppp?
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;o I haven't heard those acoustics yet! Where are they found?

I have missed you too! We must carry on with commenting each other again haha, I keep up to date with AP.net a lot more recently.

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I missed you whilst I was gone!

Now, I am back and just catching up on everything I missed in those two days hehe, which seems to be a lot. I am listening to new P!ATD now. It is sososoososo good. yay!

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No it's fine, I feel the same sometimes. I don't know if I should send you more comments, or if you just don't want to talk at that time. But all I can say is that your comments are always welcome. Thank you for saying that. He's okay now. I just took a break for a little while because he was determined to go out and I didn't think that would help him recover. He acted like a kid in that respect which was quite funny. Not that I'm glad that you went through that in a relationship, but I'm glad you understand where I'm coming from - at least one of my friends can know what it feels like. I am over it, or getting there, it's just hard when my friends feel the need to be a constant reminder. They're not too kind about the guy either, which is understandable, but it still hurts. Aww thank you, the same absolutely goes to you! I know you're going to whisk away some lucky girl who will love you for who you are. I can only hope that she'll deserve you!

I'm glad your midterms are okay. I'm a bit unfamiliar with them, so how many exams have you got in total/coming up? Have you got a holiday coming up any time soon? Anyway, I wish you the best of luck, and talking to you now has made me realise how much I missed you these past couple of weeks. Have a great day Broden!



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Broden, I'd always want to talk to you, no matter what. I would never be angry at you for not replying to me for however long, because I know that if you do, you have good reasons and more important things to do. I've just missed your friendship, that's all. I just don't want to unload all my problems onto you; it's not fair to you. But I appreciate it so much! I'm feeling a lot better now, since I've been out of school.

My dad, who is fine now, was in a car accident so I've been looking after him the past couple of weeks. Also, I don't know if I told you, but I came out of a relationship quite a while ago. My friends have just been getting at me for "not moving on" or whatever, it's just a bit frustrating. I don't know if you can sympathise, but I was very happy and things didn't end exactly pleasantly. It's just tough when a lot of my friends can't see that, acting like there must be something wrong with me. Maybe there is? Anyway, most of this is resolved now so I'm feeling a lot happier and relaxed. Thank you so much for letting me tell you all of this, knowing you're there means so much to me. You mean the world to me too, you're such a great friend!

I'm finding it a bit hard to care about my exams much at the moment. In perspective, like you said, I did my best - so whatever happens, happens. Obviously I wouldn't complain if I received impossibly amazing results, but I'm not holding my breath.

Ooh I sympathize a lot with the midterms. I'm so sorry that you're going to be stressed - if you haven't got time to get back to me, I promise that I'll understand. And worry a lot haha. I hope you do amazingly well in your exams Broden! Thank you for getting back so quickly, I miss you! Good luck with school!



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I guess we're even now I've taken such a ridiculously long time to reply to this? I've missed your company so incredibly much, but I've been having a bit of a rough time of it recently, but I don't want to bore you with my life. I'm so sorry that I put this off because of it though. I feel bad that you had so much to struggle with, that seems like you had so much going on - I'm not at all offended that you didn't reply quickly, you had so much going on so it's absolutely fine.

My exams were a month ago and I'm STILL worried about them. I keep remembering questions from the exams that I didn't know. It keeps getting at me and I'm trying hard to forget. I'm so relieved from stress on holiday so it's a nice feeling.I'm so glad you'll be proud of me, it makes me so happy when you are and when you excel at anything, because you deserve it so much.You're a very talented person and wonderful friend Broden.

I think you underestimate yourself Broden, you're a great person and such a good friend to me, so much more than I deserve. Whenever I feel bad it's nice knowing you're here for me, despite how little I feel I deserve it sometimes. I really hope college has been good to you and that you enjoy your holidays (if you're on them yet?) I can't wait to talk to you gain, like before. I've missed your friendship so much.



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Any chance we can talk on AIM some more tonight?